Crazy Arms
written by:
DG Hear

Crazy Arms - DGH By DG Hear

Note from Jake Rivers: This is my sixth semi-annual "invitational." The initial one was based on the Statler Brother's song, "This Bed of Rose's." The second used the Marty Robbins El Paso trilogy: "El Paso" "El Paso City " and "Faleena." The third had stories based on the various versions of "Maggie May" or "Maggie Mae." The fourth invitational was based on any Country & Western song and the fifth on songs by Merle Haggard.

The current invitational is based on any song written or performed by Willie Nelson.

I chose the song ‘Crazy Arms' for the Invitational. This is my second story submitted in the invitational. Thank you to all who supported my first story, ‘Blue Eyes'. A big ‘Thank You' to Mistress Lynn for editing this story and making it a much better read. I hope you enjoy it. DG Hear

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"Ralphie, hurry home, I have a big surprise for you."

"What is it, and why are you calling me Ralphie?"

I was working late when my live-in girlfriend called. The only person that always called me Ralphie was my older brother Jake, so that made me really curious.

"I'm not saying but hurry up and get here; I can't wait much longer."

We have only been living together for three months. I asked her to move in on kind of a revenge impulse. I wasn't really in love with her and I'm sure she wasn't deeply in love with me. Why did we move in together? She wanted stability in her life and I wanted; hell, I don't know what I wanted, but it was one of the stupidest decisions I ever made in my life. Now I was living with it.

"I'm about finished for the day. I'll see you in half an hour."

We don't even say I love you after a conversation anymore. I knew I made the wrong decision even before we moved in together, but I just didn't care. I had lost the woman I loved to my brother and it all caught up to me. I guess I just wanted to be miserable.

I had to wonder why she was so excited. It's probably the happiest she's sounded since we got together. Shit, why do I keep talking like this, always looking at the crappy side of things? Who knows, maybe something good is about to happen, even though I doubt it. Damn, there I go again.

When I arrived home, I received the surprise of my life. There, standing in the living room was my dear girlfriend Sylvia kissing my brother Jake. Not only that but she had her jeans unbuttoned and he had his hands slid down inside of them gripping her ass.

"What the fuck is going on? First you take Trudy, and now my girlfriend. I've had enough of both of you; how could you even do this to Trudy, let alone your own brother? You can have Sylvia too. Fuck both of you, I'm out of here." I was so pissed at both of them right then.

Then a voice called out from the kitchen. "Ralph, please wait." Trudy walked into the living room and said, "Please don't go."

"What in the hell is going on? Trudy, I can't believe you're part of this mess. You stand there while Jake has his hands in Sylvia's pants. She's a slut, I understand that, but you Trudy, I don't get it. I really did care for you till you decided to fuck my brother."

"Easy there Ralphie, she's here for you bro. I told her I wanted to start swinging and she kept refusing. When I told her that I was coming over to see Sylvia, she agreed to come. I guess she has a thing for you," Jake said and then laughed.

I looked at all three of them. Jake and Sylvia were smiling. Trudy had a very serious yet sad look on her face.

"I can't believe you would think I'd go along with this. You are all fucking nuts. Sylvia, I'm moving out. You can have the damn apartment for a month and then I want your ass out. I'll have to pay the lease for the rest of the year because my name is on it.

"You'll have a place to fuck my brother and your friends for a month. You won't get another dime from me."

Jake took his hand out of Sylvia's pants, but didn't move away from her. He just stared at me.

"Jake, this is low even for you. I can't see how you and Trudy can do this to David. He deserves a lot better parents." David was Jake and Trudy's baby boy.

"Trudy, just so you know, I cared for you, I really did. It took me a long time to get over you, if I ever have. Now, I see that just maybe Jake did me a favor fucking you. I guess I'm more disappointed in you than the other two put together. I knew they had no morals and were sleazier than shit, but you, damn you, for making me care for you."

I headed for the door, with Trudy yelling for me to stop and listen to her. I just couldn't do it. My feelings for her were all topsy-turvy. I honestly didn't know what to think anymore.

Right now, I just wanted to get away from all of them and out of this mistake in my life. Mixed emotions had me so confused. As I got into my car, I saw Trudy at the door still yelling to me. I think I was actually crying as I drove away.

I headed to a motel close to my office for the night. They gave me a weekly rate, which was good. It would give me time to put my life together and figure out what I was going to do. Realizing I didn't take anything with me, I called the house to talk to Sylvia.

"Ralphie, did you change your mind?" Sylvia asked when she answered.

"Sylvia, you're nothing but a fucking slut. We never belonged together and you fucking my brother just put the last nail in the coffin. I know you've been cheating on me since the day we met. I'm not the fucking wimp you think I am. Our being together was just one big mistake and I'm tired of paying for your living expenses, so you can fuck everyone including my brother.

"I need a few of my personal belongings. I'll be there in a couple of hours to pick them up. I don't want to see either you or my brother there. I'm not in the mood for a fight or even an argument."

"Fuck you asshole. Why should I give a shit what you want? You want your fucking clothes, then come and get them or wait till tomorrow when I go to work and get whatever the fuck you want. I'm not your fucking slave. Besides, I might fight this division of assets. You should have to pay me something."

"Are you fucking crazy? According to the law, I just have to give you a thirty-day notice before evicting you. You received your fucking notice tonight. If you fight it, I'll have your ass thrown out immediately. There is more than enough proof that I paid for most everything and that you have been unfaithful. It's your call." I hung up the phone.

Shit! I guess I would have to call in work late and go get some of my belongings tomorrow. There was no way I wanted to go back to the house tonight with everyone there.

I made a few phone calls letting my boss know that I would be out of the office the next day but that I did have my laptop and could get some work done. I then called my friend who was a lawyer and made an appointment to see him the next day.

I know this is odd but I felt like a weight fell off me. I knew I was in a bad arrangement, even if it was only for a few months. My head was finally clear enough to think, though I was still very confused about Trudy. I just couldn't believe she was into wife swapping.

I was getting ready to settle in for the night when there was a knock at the door. Opening it, I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw Trudy standing there. I wondered how in the hell she'd found me, and what she wanted.

"I heard your conversation with Sylvia. While the two of them were busy, I took two suitcases and packed some of your belongings. May I come in and talk with you? You have the wrong idea about me and I need to tell you the truth."

****

My brother Jake is almost two years older than I am. I guess while growing up we were quite the opposite other than both of us being blond and blue eyed. He was dad's favorite and I guess I was moms. I'm not saying that our parents didn't love both of us, it's just each parent seemed to favor one. Our parents named us after our grandfathers. Jake got the manly name, after my father's dad. I, on the other hand, got my name from my mom's dad, Ralph David Brady.

Being called Ralph wasn't all that bad but after the movie ‘The Christmas Story' came out, Jake started calling me Ralphie. He has been calling me that ever since, as a way of embarrassing me.

Jake has always picked on me. If I got a nicer toy, he would try to break it. Whenever we got the same thing and he broke his, he would take mine. Telling on him wasn't a good option. He was stronger and bigger than I was, and beat me up quite a few times. When I told dad, he would just say that all brothers fight and it would just make me tougher.

Jake liked sports from a very early age. I could play but I just didn't enjoy it, so I found other interests. I started taking piano lessons and did quite well. When I entered junior high school, I played the trumpet and joined the band. My mom was very proud of me.

He was into football, baseball and basketball, and was good enough to get a college scholarship for football. Like most college athletes, Jake dreamed of becoming a pro, but it never materialized. I think one reason was he was too much of a playboy.

Some days I hated Jake and the way he teased me. Then there were the days that other guys would pick on me and my brother was there to knock them on their ass. He told them he was the only one who could tease me.

When we were younger, he didn't like it when he was forced to take me with him anywhere, like the park or to the movies. He always told me that I'd better never tell mom and dad what he did or I'd regret it. Other times he needed an excuse to get out and he offered to take me along. I learned just to keep quiet about what he did.

When we were teenagers, he would drink beer with his buddies. Every now and then, he'd give me one. After I turned sixteen, he liked to use me as a driver while he had sex with girls in the back seat. He was the popular one. Some girls were nice to me just so they could get near Jake.

He was a real pussy hound. He wouldn't stay with just one girl but was always having sex with someone new. I asked him why he used the girls like that, since he never really loved any of them.

Jake laughed and said the girls got as much out of it as he did. Then he reminded me that he never forced any of them, but he couldn't help it if he was pussy whipped.

Jake and I both had smarts only he never used his except for sports. I actually did some of his homework for him since he was busy with sports and girls. I did join the cross-country team just to make my dad happy. It was non-contact and it helped me stay in shape. Often I finished toward the top also.

When he left for college, I became more popular. Everyone knew me as Jake Brady's little brother. I actually got dates because of it. I remember the first time I had sex with a girl. Before that, it was mother thumb and her four daughters. I just wasn't used to asking a girl for sex, and I didn't feel right about it since I didn't love them.

My first time was the weekend of my eighteenth birthday, and Jake was home from college for a few days. I had asked a girl from school to go to the movies. Jake said we could double date, since he was taking one of his old girlfriends out.

My date, Barbara, and Jake's date, Sheila, barely knew each other since they were two years apart in school. It was a warm night and they both wore shorts. After the movie, Jake told me to drive up to Knob Hill. It was the make-out place overlooking the town.

We had taken dad's big four-door Mercury since it had a lot of room in it. It had full bench seats in it, so Barbara sat next to me as I drove. As I was driving up to Knob Hill, I could see Jake making out with Sheila in the back seat. By the time I parked, he had her blouse unbuttoned and her shorts unzipped.

I parked the car, put my arm around Barbara, and kissed her lightly. Leaning away from me, she looked in the back seat and saw that Jake had Sheila's shorts off and was fingering her.

"Oh my god, they're going to have sex," said Barbara, staring at them.

While she did, I began to play with her breasts. I was getting a hard-on rubbing her. As I unbuttoned her blouse, she told me she was a virgin and that I could play with her breasts but I couldn't go any further.

Jake had started pumping into Sheila and Barbara still watched them. I could see she was getting horny but wouldn't let me do any more than suck on her nipples. I even told her it was my birthday but she wouldn't give in.

Jake shot into his condom and looked over at Barbara. "Damn girl it's his birthday," but Barbara wouldn't budge.

Sheila spoke up. "Come back here Ralphie and I'll give you a present."

Jake laughed and said, "Come on little brother, she's waiting for you."

I have to tell you I was all hot and bothered at this point. I knew I was thinking with my dick. I switched places with Jake and got in the back seat with a naked Sheila.

Jake handed me a condom and said, "Always use a condom little brother. We're out to have fun not to make babies."

In no time, I was having my first fuck. I couldn't believe how good it felt. It was ten times better than giving myself a hand job. I looked up and Jake was kissing Barbara. I couldn't believe it when he got her to take off her shorts and began to finger fuck her while she was watching me and Sheila.

Jake just had a way of talking to women. He'd be a damn good salesman. The way he was with words, he could sell ice cubes to Eskimos.

I came making big grunting noises as Sheila squeezed my cock with her pussy. Damn, she was having an orgasm, and a really big one according to the noises she was making.

When we finished, I had to rest a few minutes. I left my cock in her and kind of laid on her without putting all my weight down. It was then I looked up and Jake was fucking my date. Barbara was letting him fuck her. He was sitting and she was on his lap facing him.

What could I say? I had just fucked his date. I was a bit pissed at Barbara for telling me no and then fucking my brother. That was the way it was with Jake. He always wanted what I had and usually got it.

After he and Barbara came, the girls got dressed and I stayed in the back with Sheila. I kissed and hugged her all the way to Barbara's house. Jake kissed Barbara goodnight and she looked at me with a kind of apologetic look. We then dropped off Sheila. She kissed us both good night and wished me a happy birthday.

I did have sex with Barbara about a month later. I followed my brother's advice and used a condom. Oh, something I wanted to mention. Sheila told me I could call her anytime. She said I was a better fuck than my brother was. It made me feel good, so I called her twice before graduation, but I never did tell Jake.

*****

I was on my way to college on a scholastic scholarship, taking computer programming and repair. I loved the challenge it offered, and learned everything I could about them.

I chose to go to college year around, figuring I could get a bachelors degree in three years if I took extra credits. Learning was enjoyable and college was fun for me. I studied hard and dated a few girls that I met at parties.

My brother wasn't completely out of my life. We were both in different colleges but in the same city, so I just saw less of him. A lot of girls at the college would ask about him. News traveled fast about him being on the football team even though it was at another college.

He made it a point to visit me at college for two reasons, pretty much. The first was for me to help him with his studies and the other was to check out the girls at my school. He had this way of attracting women. I can't tell you how many dates he probably took away from me. He'd smile every time he bedded down a woman that I mentioned I was interested in.

It got to a point that I really didn't want all his sloppy seconds anymore. Big brother or not, I wanted my own woman. I really wanted one I could date and go steady with, while we discovered our likes and dislikes together. Maybe fall in love, get married and start a family.

I wasn't like Jake. He saw women as objects to conquer; the more he could bed down, the prouder he was.

In my so-called junior year, I met a girl named Trudy. We actually met in one of our computer classes. She was having a problem and I could tell she was getting mad at the computer.

"Can I give you a hand with something?" I asked as I walked over to her.

"Do you know anything about these stupid things? They make me so mad."

I smiled. "They can get to you if you don't understand them. Kind of like a pretty woman."

Trudy smiled back at me. We had been in the same class for a couple of weeks and I was looking for a chance to really talk to her. She reminded me so much of what you would call the girl next door, pretty but not overly sexy. She had a nice body but didn't really have to show it off. Now I was talking to her, I could see that she had a personality that made me feel good.

Even though she was mad, she tried to hold back her temper. It really made me want to get to know her better.

"So, what am I doing wrong?" she asked.

I looked at her with a slight grin. "This is going to cost you if you want me to help you out here."

"What do you mean? You're going to charge me instead of just telling me what I'm doing wrong?" She looked disappointed.

"No, I would like to take you out to dinner. In return, I'll explain what you are doing wrong and show you how to correct it."

She was now smiling again. "What if I let you show me how to fix the problem and I renege on the date?"

"We'll both lose on what could have been," I said.

I did show her what she was doing wrong and we did go out to dinner. In fact, we went out on dates the next three weekends. I knew I was falling for her.

On our third date, I kissed her passionately. We had goodnight kisses before that but not like it. She invited me into her dorm and we started making out. When we got to undressing, she told me that she wasn't on the pill. She was off them for a month but would start again the following week, for regulating her cycles.

I carried condoms thanks to my brother's advice. Being with Trudy was nothing like any of the other women I had been with before. She seemed to be so much more real and passionate. I started very gentle with her. We kissed and I began to rub her breasts.

I worked my way down to her tummy and began kissing it. I started with my fingers and I felt how hot she was getting. I spread her legs and slowly inserted my cock in her. We started slowly and before long, we began going faster. She was so hot and seemed to love it.

This is what I wanted in a woman, not just a quick fuck but passion and desire. I used two condoms that night and ate her out after finishing the last time. It was the first time I had ever given oral sex to a woman. I guess because most of the others I dated I met at parties and probably were with other men. I wasn't about to eat some guys cum out of anyone.

I thought I'd found the girl I was looking for. Then I made the mistake of telling my brother about Trudy.

When talking about Trudy I did mention that I thought she was different than most of the women I met. She seemed to really like it and put her all into it. I didn't mention anything about having strong feelings for her. I didn't want to look like a wuss in front of my brother. He was so much more experienced.

The following week on Friday, Trudy and I went to a movie. We were going out on Saturday but I told her that I'd promised a friend I would stop by and repair his computer. I didn't want to miss being with her so we just went out a day early.

The truth was my brother's fraternity was having a Nude Day party. They only had it one day a year and it was this coming Saturday. I knew about it months ago, but there was no way that I was going to ask Trudy to go to a nude party with me. I had no idea what to expect since I'd never been to one. Jake just told me that I would never forget it because people got quite wild.

After our date on Friday, Trudy and I ended up at her dorm and began making out. When it came time that we were going to have sex, Trudy told me she had a surprise for me. She had started taking the pill again the day before and so I wouldn't need a condom. This time making love with her was unbelievable. Just the feel of no condom made a world of difference. I must have come in her three times that night.

We had oral sex but I did that before I put my cock in her. Her pussy was so inviting, all pink and wet. It was probably the best sex I ever had.

Trudy said she was going out with a few of her dorm girlfriends on Saturday and that she would talk with me later next week.

I didn't want to lie to her but we weren't really a couple yet. I almost decided not to go to the Nude Day party, but I figured I'd give it a shot. Hell, it's like Jake says, "You only go around once."

*****

I didn't tell a complete lie to Trudy. I did have a friend's computer to fix. I told Jake I would be at the party but just a little late. He told me not to worry because the party usually went all night.

I stopped by my friend's house to do his computer repair. He had dial-up so it took me a couple of extra hours to get it working properly. When I showed up at Jake's fraternity house, the party was well underway.

There were two changing rooms or should I say clothes removal rooms when you first entered the converted mansion. Damn, there must have been thirty rooms in the place. I removed my clothes and felt rather funny when I entered the hall for the first time.

I couldn't believe it when I saw so many nude bodies. There must have been a hundred or more all partying. After about a half hour, I kind of forgot about being nude since everyone else was too. I honestly have to say that there were several great female bodies but overall, most women look sexier with a hint of clothing. Though I wasn't complaining, that's just my opinion.

I didn't see Jake but a couple of his friends said he was upstairs with a woman. That was no surprise. I got a beer and sat with a few guys where we discussed the female form. We had lots to choose from, since there was probably every shape and type there.

It was the first time that I'd seen Asian and black women naked. It was all there to see from tits to asses, hairy to shaved pussies. It was all quite a sight. I admit that looking at the male form was almost funny. There were guys with small dicks to the large ones, soft to those with a slight hard-on.

I honestly couldn't understand what a woman saw looking at naked males. A dangling cock and a beer belly. Of course, I wasn't into men either. I really did get a kick out of looking at the naked women. It isn't true what they say about women that if they all bent over they would look the same. I didn't see any two that looked similar.

I was thinking of finding a woman to have sex with but for some reason it made me feel that I would be cheating on Trudy. Damn, I guess I would have to see how the night went.

I didn't know hardly anyone but everybody seemed pretty friendly. Someone mentioned that there were mini-parties going on all through the mansion, so I decided to walk around a little and watch some of the action.

The hot tub and outside pool were full of people. You knew there was sex going on in them. I just hoped they had some great filtering systems. Seeing all those couples fucking in public gave me a hard-on. I didn't want to touch it and make it any harder.

One woman came up to me, grabbed hold of it, and rubbed it against her pussy. It startled me, but she laughed and said, "That feels good, if you want more I'll be upstairs." She turned and walked away as I watched her ass as she walked up the stairs.

I couldn't believe she was so forward but I started walking toward the stairs. I had no idea which room she had gone into, so I opened a couple of doors. When I saw people were having sex, I closed them and went to the next. I opened the third door and got the surprise of my life.

On the bed was Trudy on her hands and knees. My brother Jake had his cock in her pumping for all he was worth.

"There you are Ralphie. I was wondering if you ever showed up. You're right about Trudy here, she is one hell of a fuck. I had to feed her a few drinks to loosen her up. Wait a few minutes and you can have your usual sloppy seconds." He had a silly grin on his face.

I didn't know what to say. I saw Trudy's mouth gape open as she looked at me. I honestly have to say my heart dropped and my cock went soft. I was so hurt on the inside.

I finally said, "She was the best I've ever been with. Have fun Jake."

Jake came in her and I noticed he didn't wear a condom. He looked at me and said, "She's on the pill and I ran out of condoms."

As I walked out of the room, I took one last look at Trudy and I saw a tear running down her cheek. Once downstairs, I got dressed and went back to my dorm. Jake had done it to me again. I had only myself to blame. I should never have gotten serious about Trudy. Now I find out she lied to me about going out with her friends unless they were all there also. I didn't know them so maybe she didn't lie.

"Now blue ain't the word for the way that I feel And the storm's brewing in this heart of mine This ain't no crazy dream I know that it's real And you're someone else's love now you're not mine"

Trudy's story:

I grew up in a middle-sized city with wonderful parents. They own and operate three grocery stores. My life was generally school and working at one of the stores. Don't misunderstand me, I loved working there. My parents were great and always allowed me to go to any school events.

I didn't date a lot but I did go to the dances and the prom. I had one boyfriend during my junior and senior year, but we broke up when I left for college.

I have two older brothers who each manage one of dad's stores. One is five years older than I am and the other is three years older. They both went to the local technical college and received Business Management degrees to help run the stores.

My dad asked me if I would like to go to the local college to get an accounting degree and do most of the bookkeeping for the three businesses. Marie has been dad's bookkeeper ever since he opened the first store when I was just a little girl. She was due to retire and dad would need a replacement.

I would only need a two-year degree to learn the basics. My problem was I didn't want to go to the local tech college. I wanted to spread my wings a little. I told my dad and mom that I wanted to go to the university in the much larger city and take classes there. They offered a two-year course in accounting also.

Of course, my parents were afraid of letting their little girl loose in the big world. As I reminded my dad, the school was only two hours away, so it wasn't as if I would never get home. Eventually they agreed to let me go but I had to promise I'd be home some weekends and all holidays.

We all cried the day we packed my things and took them to my dorm room. I kissed my parents goodbye and knew I was on my own for two years. They reminded me that if I ever had a problem, I could always call home.

I wanted to learn a little about life outside the cocoon I lived in. As I mentioned, I only had the one boyfriend and yes, I did have sex with him. It wasn't at all the fairytale sex I thought it would be. It hurt and was over almost before it started.

I didn't want to be a whore or a slut but I was hoping for a couple of sexual encounters before leaving college and starting my life back in my home town. I figured some day I would meet a nice guy, get married and have a family.

My first few months of college were almost all studies. I worked my butt off to adjust. I went home a couple of weekends and helped at one of the stores.

My dorm sisters were all pretty nice. Amy and Jan were my two closest friends at college. They were both a little more knowledgeable about the dating scene than I was, and told me they would take care of me.

After about four months, I went to my first party. It was a bit wilder than the kind back home. Everyone seemed okay but a few were into drugs, so I stayed away from them.

The guys must have all been there to get drunk, laid or both. A couple kept trying to get me into bed. I told them no but they kept bugging me. Finally, I told them to go fuck themselves and they left me alone. Though I wasn't old enough I did have a couple of drinks even though I didn't much care for beer. That night I didn't have sex with anyone.

The next party was a lot nicer. Someone there handed me a pina colada. I liked them but had a few too many, and ended up having sex with a guy. It wasn't any better than before either. I did have sex a couple of other times but nothing worth writing home about.

Before I knew it, my first year was over and I was home for a couple of months. I worked at the store and Marie started showing me what she did. I'd helped her before but now I had to learn it.

My second year of college completely changed my life. I went on a few dates and to a couple of parties. Amy and Jan told me about a special party held at the end of the school year. It was a Nude Day party given at a mansion at one of the other colleges nearby. The three of us weren't complete prudes and made a pact to attend it.

We decided it would be our college day's goodbye party. Something to truly remember. I jumped into my studies making sure to learn all I could. I figured I would give the Nude Day party my last hurrah.

It was nearing the end of the season and I was having some problems with some of the computer programs. A good-looking guy from my class came over and asked if I needed help.

He said he would help me but it would cost me. I was a little pissed that he would charge me for helping me, but the cost was a dinner date. I was flattered. He told me his name was Ralph. We went out and had a great time, laughing and joking, discovering we had a lot in common. We even lived within thirty miles of each other.

After our date, he only kissed me goodnight. He didn't try grabbing my ass or feeling me up. When he asked me out again the following week, I said yes.

It was so much fun to be with Ralph. We realized that my brother played football against his brother in high school. Ralph said he was never big into sports. I told him I really wasn't either. All that was ever on the television at home was one sports program or another. Between dad and my brothers, I never was able to watch what I liked.

We made out a little in the car when he took me back to the dorm. I felt sparks when he touched me. I believe I was falling for him already then. The following week we went out again and I had the dorm to myself. I invited him in and we had sex. I should say we made love because that's what it felt like, only we were still two somewhat strangers.

I told him I was off the pill for a month and he told me that he had condoms. He made wonderful gentle love to my body. It wasn't at all like my old boyfriend or the few guys I was with at college. He gently kissed and massaged my nipples and rubbed my belly.

I couldn't believe it when he gave oral sex to me. It was my first time ever and I came while he was still down there. He then slowly entered me and it felt great. All the pampering and multiple orgasms made this the kind of sex I'd dreamed of finding.

It was odd but neither of us said, "I Love You". I could picture myself with Ralph but we'd only known each other for three weeks.

Looking back, I wish I had said something. It would have saved so much pain and heartache for both of us. Instead he asked me if we could go out the following Friday. He had promised a friend that he would fix his computer on Saturday.

I agreed and we went out and came back to the dorm and I had the best sex of my life. I started back on the pill the day before and told Ralph that he didn't need to use a condom. You should have seen his eyes light up. He went down on me again and made sure I came before he made love to me.

I think we made love at least three times that night. With only two weeks of school left, I was hoping that we would agree to see each other after my graduation. He had another year to go to get his bachelors degree in computers.

What I didn't mention was that Saturday was the day that Amy, Jan and I were going to go to the Nude Day party at the other college. I thought about backing out, but we had planned on going for almost a year. If I had known how Ralph felt about me, I would have never gone. It was the biggest mistake of my life.

Damn, why didn't Ralph and I express our feelings for each other? We would have made such a nice couple. Instead, all hell broke loose. Why was I so stupid?

I told Amy and Jan that I kind of liked a guy named Ralph and we had been dating the last couple of weeks, so I wasn't sure whether I should go to the party or not.

"Trudy, we've been planning on this all year. It was going to be our one time, let it all hang out, remembrance blast. You can't back out now," said Amy.

"Are you in love with this Ralph guy? You've never mentioned him before to us," replied Jan.

"No, I don't know, we only dated a couple of times but he's so nice. I feel like I would be cheating on him."

"Did he say he loves you or that he was into a long term commitment? Come on Trudy, this is the day we've been waiting for. If this Ralph guy cares for you he will still be there next week," exclaimed Amy.

"All right, I'll go. I just hope we don't see anyone we know, especially being naked. I don't know how I could explain that one to my parents."

Jan laughed and said, "If they are there naked, I don't think most of us would want our parents to know. They would have a secret as much as we do."

We went to the mansion where the Nude Day party was. Both men and women greeted us and it didn't seem sleazy at all. They had an undressing room for us to disrobe in and even closets for us to hang up our clothes. I kept my panties on at the beginning of the party, but Amy and Jen went nude right off the bat.

It felt embarrassing at first but then after a few minutes seeing everyone else naked, I felt funny still having my panties on. I might not have a models body but I felt I looked good compared to most of the women I saw. I found myself checking out the packages on the men. It didn't bother me as much as I thought it would since I had seen my older brothers naked a number of times while growing up.

I will say that Ralph had nothing to be ashamed of. Why I was thinking about him when naked men were everywhere is beyond me. I stayed with Amy and Jan for most of the evening. We went in the hot tub and the pool and actually had a good time.

Amy pointed to a man walking toward us. He was built quite well so I figured he played sports. When he came over, he introduced himself as Jake Brady. Right then I knew it was Ralph's brother.

"So you must be the infamous Trudy that my brother has been talking about. He has nothing but good things to say about you."

"What did he have to say?" I asked.

"He said you were a good looking young woman who loved sex and was probably the best lay he had ever had," said Jake as he smiled at me.

I couldn't believe that Ralph would talk about me like that. I was hoping more to hear how much he cared for me or was falling for me. Instead, I get that he thought I was a good fuck. I tried to hide my anger but I thought to hell with Ralph. Maybe I will just show his brother what a good fuck I really was.

I stepped out of the pool and stayed with Jake the rest of the evening. He made sure I had a few pina coladas too. He sure was a smooth talker. I overheard a couple of women talking about how lucky I was to be with Jake.

He asked me to go up to one of the private rooms with him. I knew what it meant; we would be having sex. I don't know for sure why I went with him. I half believed it was to get revenge at Ralph. Here I was beginning to care for him and he just thought I was a good fuck.

While Jake and I were talking, I did mention that I just started back on the pill. Jake didn't waste any time in having sex. He had me lie on the bed and started rubbing my pussy. Within a few minutes, he was fingering me and the minute I became moist he put his cock in me.

It was back to the old sex I used to have with my boyfriend Roger. I didn't feel the sparks I did with Ralph. Even though Jake was long lasting, I found that I had to do a lot of the work to get off. Jake probably thought it was all him, but I was moving as much as possible to get the good feelings that I felt with Ralph.

"Damn, girl, you are a hot one. Old Ralphie wasn't kidding. My little brother sure knows how to pick 'em. You are one sweet ride. I wouldn't mind getting to know you better. Too bad old Ralphie didn't get a chance to go bareback with you. He told me he always wore a condom."

I guess he didn't know Ralph and I were together the day before. I never agreed with or denied his statement. He was good but he wasn't Ralph, though I would never tell him that. He had me turn over and began taking me from behind, doggie style.

That's when I heard him say, "There you are Ralphie. I was wondering if you ever showed up. You're right about Trudy here, she is one hell of a fuck. I had to feed her a few drinks to loosen her up. You want seconds when I‘m through? Hell, you don‘t need a condom, she‘s on the pill."

"No thanks Jake. She's the best I've ever been with; have fun."

I couldn't talk. My mouth was open but I had no idea what to say. By the look on Ralph's face, I had just made one of the worst decisions of my life.

After Ralph left, I talked with Jake. He loved to talk about himself and his playing sports. It was like listening to my brothers talking about sports. Jake asked if he could see me again the following week. I told him I would go out with him. I was just a bit lost now, not quite knowing what to do.

After getting back to the dorm, Amy and Jan said they had a blast. They each had sex with two different guys. They told me that they thought Jake was a hunk and were surprised when I told them I would be going out with him the following week.

I tried to call Ralph a half dozen times during the week, but he wasn't returning my calls. I figured he didn't want anything to do with me. I went out with Jake the following week, though he wanted more sex than anything. I said what the hell and let him have his way.

We talked afterward and I told him we lived within thirty miles of one another. He was surprised at that and asked, "Do you want to come to my graduation party at my parent's house. I'll be graduating in two weeks with a bachelor's degree in salesmanship."

"Will you come to my graduation party next week then? I'm getting an associate degree in accounting. It's only a two year degree, but my parents and brothers are throwing me a party."

We agreed to attend each other's party but not the actual ceremonies. I did tell him that if he saw Ralph he could invite him along too.

Jake did show up at my party. I introduced him as a friend. He and my brothers got along great. They talked about sports just about the whole time he was there. I was busy helping mom and my sister-in-laws setting up tables and putting out food.

I couldn't believe it when one of my brothers said he played football against Jake in high school. There went another conversation about sports. Dad had asked Jake what he was going to do now since he graduated.

He said he was looking at a few offers he received from college. Dad mentioned to him that he knew a place that was looking for a salesman/representative for distributing beer products. He gave Jake the information and wished him luck.

After my party, Jake reminded me that I had to attend his the following week. He even invited my brothers to come along. Ralph never came to my party but he didn't have a choice about going to his brothers graduation party.

It was the first time I saw him since that Nude Day party. He totally avoided me the whole day. I tried to approach him but he would walk away. I got the feeling that he hated me.

I met his mom and dad. I must say that I loved his mother; she was so nice to me. She asked if I knew Ralph since we went to the same school. I told her I did but that we hadn't talked since I graduated. She was a smart woman and I could tell she knew there was a problem between us, but didn‘t interfere.

*****

The following week I went back to work for my dad at the store. Maria was showing me how to post the payables and receivables. That's what I would be doing later for all three stores.

My stomach was bothering me and I made a doctors appointment, thinking I might be having a reaction to the new birth control pills. The doctor ran some tests and then she came back in and handed me a pregnancy test kit.

"Doc, I can't be pregnant; I've been taking the pills you prescribed."

"Trudy, please take the test. If it's negative we can run more tests."

I took the test and it came out positive. I couldn't believe it. "Doc, I took the pills religiously, I never missed a one. How can I be pregnant?"

"Trudy, I don't need to know everything about your personal life but when did you first have sex after taking this new prescription?"

"I took the pill on Thursday and didn't have a sexual encounter until Friday and again on Saturday."

"Trudy, you were supposed to take the pills for at least a week before having intercourse. That's why you became pregnant. The stomach ailment is because you are about a month along and the pills are aggravating your stomach. They can't stop a pregnancy after the seed has been planted. You have to stop taking them immediately."

I was in shock, and had no idea what I was going to do.

"You should contact the baby's father. Trudy, abortion is an option. I just want you to know that I won't perform them. I took a vow to save lives, not take them. I'm not judging you but if you choose abortion you will have to go to the family planning center. If you decide to have the baby to either keep or give up for adoption, I'll gladly help you all I can."

I knew I had to tell the father but who was it? It could be either Ralph or Jake. I was all confused on what to do. Later, when I got home, I was in my room crying when my mother came in.

"What is it Trudy? What's the matter?"

"Mom, I'm pregnant! I was on the pill but I didn't give it enough time. I'm sorry, but I don't know what to do."

"Is Jake the father?" she asked.

I thought for a second. My family seemed to like Jake. Ralph hated me and wouldn't even talk to me. "Yes Mom, Jake is the father of the baby," I replied.

"You need to talk to him and let him know. He'll need to help support the baby. You are going to keep it aren't you?"

"I think so Mom."

It was two days later when Jake dropped in at our store. He wanted to thank my dad for his referral on getting the job. He was now the sales representative for the local brewery. His job was to go to all the establishments that sold beer and push his products. It was a great job for him due to his gift of gab and sports background.

"Jake, after you talk to dad I need to talk to you."

"What is it Trudy?"

"Go tell dad your good news first. I know he'll be happy for you."

When Jake came back from talking with my dad, I asked him into our office. "Okay, what is it that's so important?"

"I'm pregnant."

"What? I thought you said you were on the pill?"

"I was but the doctor said I hadn't taken them long enough before having sex with you. I'm sorry, I didn't know how else to tell you. I'm keeping the baby."

I figured he wanted to ask me if I had relations with anyone else but the last time we were together I told him he and Ralph were the only two men I'd been with in six months. He assumed that Ralph wore a condom. To boost his ego I had told him I had only been with Ralph twice.

I didn't want to lie to him but I wasn't sure what else to do.

"Trudy, we'll get married."

"Jake you don't have to marry me. You just need to help support our baby."

"Bullshit, my baby isn't going to be a bastard. He's going to have a dad," said Jake.

Crying, I hugged Jake and thanked him. That night mom and I told dad about the baby and that Jake and I were going to get married. Dad wasn't happy but at least he said Jake was doing the right thing. I don't think love even entered the picture as far as dad was concerned.

That weekend Jake took me to see his mother. We told her the news and she was excited about being a grandmother.

Ralph went to college year round so he could finish early. Jake called him and told him the news. He told me that Ralph was surprised that he was going to settle down and then said Ralph congratulated him but needed to go as he had homework to do.

We planned a small wedding for the following month. Jake said he didn't want me showing when I walked down the aisle. The wedding was kind of a rushed affair but my dad had enough contacts to take care of it all.

My brothers were Jake's ushers. He finally got Ralph to agree to be best man. It sure was odd seeing him in a tux standing up there next to his older brother.

Before the ceremony, Ralph asked to talk to me alone. We went to a side room in the chapel where he apologized to me.

"Trudy, I'm so sorry for the way I have been acting. I've been holding it against you being with my brother. We weren't a couple and I never expressed my feelings to you. I wish the best for you and Jake and hope that we can always be friends."

I saw tears in his eyes, and had them in mine too. I wished I had known he cared because maybe things might have turned out different. He gave me a hug and wished me a happy life. Then I watched him leave the room and take his place at the front of the church.

This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. Why didn't it feel that way? I did smile at my dad as he led me down the aisle to give me away. Both Jake and Ralph looked so handsome.

When the pastor said, "You may kiss the bride", I noticed more of a cringe rather than a smile on Ralph's face.

At the reception, everyone seemed to be having a nice time. That is, all but Ralph. He tried to put on a good front but I could see through it. He spent far too much time at the bar. I could see that his mother noticed as well.

We didn't have time for a honeymoon since Jake just started his new job and I was busy learning Marie's job at the store. We just spent a couple of days in a motel with a pool and hot tub.

Jake was a good person but wild and untamed. I was hoping that over time he might change. Our marriage would depend on it.

Sex hadn't changed much. I still had to work at it to get an orgasm, but at least Jake was able to last long enough for me to get there. Our marriage seemed okay for the first few months, but soon I noticed Jake wasn't as attentive. He made me feel as if he'd done the right thing and married me just so our kid wouldn't be a bastard.

I made my own bed and knew I now had to sleep in it. We got along but didn't talk much. Most of his conversation was about the different people he met each day and how much he enjoyed his job. In his spare time, he wanted to visit old friends, and family. It always had to do with watching sports.

As my belly grew, our lovemaking dwindled. I think it repulsed him. He always said he didn't want to hurt the baby even though I told him it was fine.

He was elated when I told him I had a scan done and he was going to have a son. Now we had to pick out a name. He wanted to name him Jake Jr. but I didn't like it. He told me he wanted a real man's name for his son.

We were at his parent's house one day and his mother suggested the name David.

"Mom, I want a powerful man's name like Jake or Jack."

"Jake," said his mom. "There were many kings named David and what about David slewing Goliath."

Jake's middle name was Lee so I mentioned that. "Lee is a powerful name too, like General Robert E. Lee. He'll still be named after you. Our son can be David Lee Brady."

Jake thought for a minute and agreed to the name. He then went back in to watch a game on the television.

"Mom, what made you think of David? I do think that name is nice." I always called Agnes Brady mom.

She looked up at me, gave a slight smile and said, "That's Ralph's middle name. I often wished we would have called him by his middle name so he wouldn't have got stuck with Ralphie by Jake."

The further I got into the pregnancy the less I saw of Jake. He said he was out making money for our family. As he mentioned, it was a good time to go to the bars and buy a few beers for customers to get them to change to his brands.

I knew what he was saying was true, but I also knew he was a pussy hound. Hell, I was proof of that, I thought as I looked at my belly getting bigger by the day. If we did it twice a week, we were lucky, so I had to figure he was getting it on the side already.

One Friday Jake called and said he would be home quite late. I told him I was going to go visit his mother. I loved talking to her. My mom was a wonderful lady too, but after working at the store all day she preferred to just relax. When I got there, mom made us each some tea. We talked and she told me about the boys growing up.

"Trudy, I'm surprised that you married Jake. Don't get me wrong, Jake is my son and I love him very much. I'm so happy you're my daughter-in-law. Actually, you're more like a daughter to me. I just hope Jake realizes what he has before he makes a mistake and loses it."

"What do you mean Mom? I'm not going anywhere."

"Nothing, it's just that Jake needs to grow up and take care of his responsibilities. To be honest, I'm surprised that you and Ralph didn't hook up. You two seem more compatible. Oh god, I'm middling. I'm sorry honey. I have this tendency of speaking what I'm thinking."

"It's all right Mom, really. I like Ralph, but I'm married to his brother. I just hope it all works out for the baby's sake. I guess time will tell if Jake will outgrow his old ways."

Right then we heard a voice coming in the back door. It was Ralph.

"Ralph, I didn't know you were coming home this weekend," said his mother as she gave him a kiss and hug.

"Just a little lonely to see my family." He looked up then and saw me with my big belly. "Hi Trudy, how are you and the baby coming along?"

"We're both doing fine. Just a couple of months to go."

"Ralph, I was just going to refill our tea. Would you like some?"

"Sure, thanks," he said, sitting in the recliner, as his mom left the room.

"You have an amazing glow about you Trudy. Being pregnant agrees with you."

"Yeah, right, a big bellied woman wobbling around."

"No, I'm serious. You're beautiful and sexy. Giving birth is a great miracle of life."

"Tell that to my aching back and shoulders," I said to Ralph.

"Ralph, rub her shoulders like you do mine when they ache," his mom said as she walked back in with the tea.

"Mom, she's Jake's wife. I can't go touching her."

"Oh for Pete's sake Ralph, I said rub her shoulders not feel her up."

"Ralph, if you do have magic hands, I would appreciate it. My shoulders are killing me. Just don't touch my boobs," I said and laughed.

I was sitting on the couch and he asked me to lean forward. He moved behind me and began rubbing my neck. Mom was laughing and I asked her why and she said I was making funny sounds, as if I was having an orgasm.

I was so embarrassed. "I'm sorry Mom but it feels so good. Ralph is taking the tension out of my shoulders."

Ralph went a little lower and rubbed some tight spots in my back. "I could take this all day." I laughed after what I had said. "Thank you Ralph."

"You're welcome Trudy. Glad I could help get some of the kinks out. If you ever need me, just give me a call."

As he was finishing his tea, I put my hand on my big belly. "Mom, come feel the baby kicking."

She came over and felt it, grinning at the movements under her hand.

"Do you want to feel it Ralph?" I asked.

"Wow, that's so exciting," he said with his hand on my tummy. "It's so hard to believe that a baby is being formed. It's just incredible. Well, ladies, I have to get upstairs and do some things."

He gave his mom a kiss on the cheek and headed upstairs. I think he just wanted to get away from me. You can probably guess what I was thinking. I had to wonder if I married the wrong brother. Besides, just because I cared for him doesn't mean he had the same feelings for me. Damn, sometimes life sucks.

I was less than two months away from having my baby and he would be my life. I wanted to be the best mommy I could possibly be.

Jake was coming home later all the time and never seemed to want sex. He told me he was too tired from working hard all day. I figured he probably screwed some bimbo at one of his stops. I wasn't sure what to do. We'd only been married six months and our marriage was a wreck already. The store filled my days and I spent my evenings with my parents or Jake's mom so I wasn't lonely.

My dad and I talked about putting in an updated computer system. He wanted to make it easier for me to do the posting from all three stores. He was going to check around to find a firm to do it when I suggested Ralph.

"Is he really good at this sort of thing, Trudy?"

"Dad, I've never seen a computer that he couldn't fix. Besides, he would probably give you a good rate. You should give him a call."

Dad did call Ralph and he agreed to put an updated system in that would do all the things dad wanted. He would be able to use most of the existing equipment saving dad a lot of money.

When dad asked him the cost of doing the labor, Ralph told him that he usually charged sixty dollars an hour, but since I was family, he would do it for twenty-five. Since he was still finishing school, he would be able to do it only on the weekends, figuring it would take three to finish the job.

I looked forward to Saturdays since I knew Ralph would be there to work on the computer system. I enjoyed just having him around and talking with him. He got the job done in three weeks like he promised. The last thing he told me before going back to school was that he would always be there for me. I'm not sure why he ever said it.

Jake just asked if Ralphie finished his work yet. Instead of complimenting Ralph on his work, he would just say he'd always been a geek.

Ralph stayed at school for a few weeks, and then came home on a Friday night. I was home alone when my water broke and scared me to death. I called Jake's mom to tell her I needed help. Ralph answered the phone.

"Ralph, my water broke and I'm scared. Jake's not here to take me to the hospital, so should I call 911?"

"No, I'll come and get you. I'll be there in five minutes; I promise."

Four minutes later, he was there. He helped me out to the car and took me to the hospital. His mother was calling my parents to let them know I was in labor and at the hospital. Ralph told his mother to keep trying to get hold of Jake and he could pick her up and bring her to the hospital too. Ralph was doing everything that my husband should have been doing.

I was in the birthing room with Ralph holding my hand and supporting me. About half an hour later, my mom arrived and came in the room with us. I was probably in there for another hour when Jake and his mom arrived.

Ralph kissed me on the forehead and left the room unnoticed. It was time for the baby to come out. Jake said he was getting queasy and went to the restroom and threw up. He didn't come back in till after the baby was born, acting like the big man on campus. Everyone was talking about how our little boy had blond hair and blue eyes just like his dad. He was a beautiful baby.

My brothers and their wives arrived. The whole family was there. Jake was acting like a proud father. Maybe things were going to get better after all.

As everyone was leaving, I noticed Ralph wasn't there. When I asked, no one remembered him leaving. My brothers said they didn't even remember seeing him when they came.

The next day, Jake came by to take me home. Both of our mothers were there to greet us. For now, we had a bassinette set up for David in our bedroom so I could be near him.

"Where's Ralph?" I asked his mom.

"He just came home to check out the computers at the store. When you called, he stopped what he was doing to take you to the hospital. After everyone showed up, he checked everything and then came home. He went back to college this morning," she said.

"I just wanted to thank him for being there for me," I said to her.

She smiled at me and we let it go at that. I figured there was more to it but I wasn't going to push it.

After my baby was born, my life was busy. I took two weeks off to get things in order. Jake didn't change much. He would get up and get ready for work. As far as the baby was concerned, he would talk to him a little bit before work and late at night when he came home.

I, on the other hand, took care of David. Jake's mom would watch him while I was at work. I even brought him to work a few times, since I missed being away from him.

One day Jake and I got into an argument. It was going to happen someday, I knew it. He was drunk and one thing led to another and he said, "Hell, for all I know the kid isn't even mine."

I was pissed and screamed back at him, "Then go get tested, you asshole."

He decided to have it done. Of course, I had to take Jake's blood sample along with David's to the clinic. At this point, I really didn't care much. I was on the wrong track to nowhere anyway.

The results came back and Jake, his mother and I were sitting there when he opened the results. It read that there was an eighty-five percent chance that he was the father.

"What the hell does that mean?" asked Jake.

I really didn't know what to say but his mother spoke up. "Jake, it means that if eighty-five men had sex with Trudy in the same time frame, you would most likely be the father. Sorry Trudy, but I don't know how else to explain it."

"On TV they always say 99.999999%," said Jake.

"Jake, they do that for television. To make it sound great. Would you feel better if it was one in a million instead of one in eight-five? I know Trudy well enough to know she didn't sleep with eighty-five other men while she was with you."

I had to smile when his mother said, "With all the beer you drink I'm surprised it was that high. You probably had your sample pretty diluted down."

I had no idea if all that explaining that she said was true. I never did understand how they figure it out but it did satisfy Jake that David was his son.

About a month went by and I went to my mother-in-law's house after work to get little David. I found Ralph sitting on the couch holding and feeding him a bottle.

"Ralph, what are you doing home?"

"I'm through with most of my classes. I can do a couple of finals on-line. I have to go back in a month and graduate."

"So, what do you think of little David Lee Brady?"

"David? You named him David after me? I can't see Jake agreeing with that."

"We didn't name him after you. He's named after King David, slayer of Goliath. Of course Lee is Jake's middle name." I smiled when I said it.

"He's a beautiful baby. I hope he gets the best life has to offer."

Ralph finished feeding him and even put him on his shoulder and burped him. The last time Jake burped him he got mad when the baby spit up on him.

For the next month after getting off work, I saw Ralph holding, talking to or playing with little David. Mom said he spent a lot of time with David.

The weekend before Ralph was to go back to college, we decided to have a big cookout at mom and dad's house. My brothers and their families came. Jake invited a couple of his friends from work and we invited a few of the drivers.

The guys decided to play some tag football. They were going to play for one hour and the team with the highest score would win. Each touchdown was worth seven points. The losers would have to pay for the beer for the whole night.

Each team had five of the younger guys on it. The older men were going to sit back and drink beer. Ralph wasn't interested in playing so he was just going to watch.

There was ten minutes to go with the score tied when my older brother pulled a hamstring or something.

"I'm sorry guys, I can't play anymore. I guess I'm too old for this," Jim said.

Jake said, "Then your team has to forfeit. You're one man short."

"Come on Jake, it's just a friendly game. You can't be serious," said my brother Jim.

I knew Jake had too much to drink by how loud he was getting. "Nope, a rule is a rule, you're one man short."

Most of the guys didn't agree with Jake but it was his party. Jim looked over at Ralph. "How about doing me a favor and playing for the last ten minutes? Your brother is getting a little obnoxious."

Ralph looked over at me and said, "Sure, why not. No one wants to lose on a forfeit."

Jake laughed and told his teammates, "Hell guys, don't worry about him, he can't play for shit. Just get the ball back so we can score."

On the first couple of plays, Ralph blocked and it helped move the ball forward. On the next two plays, he ran out for a pass to fake the other team. When he went back in the huddle, he told my brother Joe to throw him the ball since no one was covering him.

On the next play, Ralph gave a light block and ran as fast as he could down the sideline. By the time Jake was able to react, Ralph was well past him. Joe made a great throw over Jake's head and Ralph caught it for a touchdown.

Everyone was happy except Jake's team. It was made up of his buddies. "Shit Jake, I thought you said the kid couldn't play. He ran clean past you."

"It was just a lucky catch. We have a couple of minutes left to score. Let's just do it," said Jake.

They ran their first couple of plays and gained a little. They only had time left for one more play and decided on a long bomb.

We heard Jake say, "Everyone go long and I'll get the ball over the goal line. It's up to one of you guys to catch it."

Everyone went long and Jake heaved the ball. Ralph jumped up, caught it and went running back down the field. Time was up and the game was over, but Jake came at Ralph hard and knocked him down.

Joe yelled out, "What the hell are you doing? The game was over and you hit the kid."

"Oh hell, it was just an open field hit. I didn't mean to hit him that hard."

I grabbed some of the baby's wipes and went over to Ralph whose nose was bleeding. I told him to lie there for a few minutes till it stopped.

Eventually he got up and his teammates thanked him for winning the game. A few minutes later, Jake came over and apologized for hitting him so hard.

"No hard feelings bro. I guess I just got too caught up in the game."

"Sure, no problem," said Ralph.

I took the bloody tissues and put them in a baggie in the baby's diaper bag. I wanted it for later. The only person who saw me put it there was Jake's mom and she didn't say a word. I had to wonder what she thought.

Someone asked Ralph what he was going to do after he graduated. He said he already had a position with a local computer service, starting two weeks after graduation.

I was sitting next to Jake holding the baby when Jake turned to Ralph.

"Hey Ralphie, why are you staying at school a week after you graduate? Got a woman we don't know about?"

I knew it pissed Ralph off when he answered so only Jake and I could hear.

"Nope, I pretty much missed out on the Nude Day party last year. I thought I'd go and maybe come back with a wife, or at least a steady lay."

Neither Jake nor I had a comeback for that.

*****

Ralph continued his story:

I went back to college and graduated. Mom and Dad came to see me. They brought Trudy and the baby along. Jake said he was too busy but would be at my party when I returned home.

Trudy said she came since it was the same college she'd graduated from the year before. It was really nice seeing her there.

After the ceremony, we all went out for a nice dinner. I told my parents that I would be home in about a week because there were a few functions I wanted to attend. Trudy gave me a sad look knowing one was the annual Nude Day party.

After my parents and Trudy left, I had a lot of time to think. I was mad at myself for being such a pussy, a real wuss. I let my brother marry the only girl I cared for, so I decided it was time to change my life.

At the Nude Day party, I drank and enjoyed myself feeling up and having sex with as many women as I could. A guy at the party sold me some pills which really got me going. Toward the end of the party, I ended up with Sylvia.

She told me she had dropped out of school and was just going to enjoy life. After the party, we went to her apartment where I spent the night. I must have really been out of it. I remember most of what we did but the next day, I felt like shit. I spent two days at Sylvia's place recovering from the party.

We fucked god knows how many times. Sylvia was one sexy woman. I can tell you right now that mom would never approve of her but Jake would go ape shit over her. I told her I had to head home because I had a job waiting for me.

"Take me with you. We're good together."

"I don't want to get married or have kids right now," I said.

"That's okay, we don't need to get married. I'm all for just living with you. I promise you that you'll get all the loving you can handle."

I remembered telling Jake and Trudy that maybe I'd bring home a girlfriend from the party. What did I have to lose? I didn't owe anyone an explanation and Sylvia was one hell of a woman when it came to sex.

"Sure, why not?"

It was way out of character for me but I didn't care anymore. I was tired of being the nice guy, the good son. I was leasing an apartment when I got home. I needed to get away from mom and dad's house and seeing Trudy every day.

When I told my mom, she tried to be nice but I could tell she was upset. I told her we would be there the following weekend. It was when they were going to throw my graduation party.

Sylvia and I stopped at my apartment first. All I had was a bedroom set so far, though it came with kitchen appliances. I told Sylvia we could start getting furniture next week.

The usual people were at my party when we got there. My family and Trudy's family showed up. I could tell Trudy's brothers thought Sylvia was a knockout but their wives were there so they didn't push the compliments too far.

Jake on the other hand, was almost drooling. Trudy tried to be nice but it looked like she was jealous. Overall, the party was interesting. Sylvia acted as if she was in love with me by hugging and kissing me in front of everyone. For some strange reason, I felt like I was getting some sort of revenge at both Jake and Trudy.

Life after college was different for me. I had a great job and came home to all the sex a guy could ask for. The cost was that Sylvia was a flirt and wanted to pick out all our furniture. A huge downside was that I wasn't happy. After the revenge feeling wore off, I was just a guy with a live-in girlfriend who I believed cheated on me on a regular basis.

A couple of months passed and I received a call from Sylvia asking me to come home early. She had a surprise for me. That's when I found her in my apartment with my brother Jake.

The real surprise was when Jake said he wanted to swap. I couldn't believe it when he said Trudy was in on it. That was when I knew I had enough. I couldn't believe that Trudy would do such a thing, and so I left.

This is where I left off at the beginning of the story. I was getting ready to settle in for the night when there was a knock at the door.

I had no idea who it could be at my motel door. I opened it and there stood Trudy. I couldn't believe my eyes. What the hell was she doing here? How did she find me?

"I heard your conversation with Sylvia. While the two of them were busy, I took two suitcases and packed some of your belongings. Knowing you, I figured you would find a room close to your work. I just looked for your car. May I come in and talk to you? You have the wrong idea about me and I need to tell you the truth."

I stood there staring at her, my mind trying to grasp on what was happening. My brother was at my house fucking my girlfriend. His wife, who I really cared for, was at my door wanting desperately to talk to me.

"Please Ralph, we need to talk. It is really important that I tell you the whole truth."

"Where's David?"

"He's at your mothers. I asked her to watch him for me because I was going to break up with Jake tonight. I don't know if you're aware of it but your mom has been my best friend and I told her the whole story."

"What story? What did you say to my mom?"

"Let me in and I'll tell you everything."

I let her in and offered her a beer. I know she wasn't a beer drinker but it was all I had bought. When she took one, I figured whatever she had to say was important.

"You say you were going to leave Jake tonight, but yet you show up at my house for what he claimed was to swap mates. Would you mind starting there?"

"I should first tell you that Jake got a job offer from his company. They are opening a new sales office and distribution center in Indiana. He said we were going to move there, that's me, him and David. I told him there was no way that I was going to let him uproot us like that. I want David to grow up around our family.

"If Jake was a really good husband, I might have taken a chance and moved. We have been arguing day after day. It's not just his work but I know he has been seeing other women on the side right after we got married.

"I had hoped that he would change after David was born but he didn't. I've heard rumors that he has been with other women. He got to a point where he would almost flaunt it.

"For the past two weeks, he has been trying to get me to be a swinger. I told him no way. I have honestly been faithful to him ever since we got married. Today he told me he was going to go see Sylvia. I could either come along and take part or stay home."

"So why did you agree to go with him, Trudy?"

"Because of you Ralph. You have been the best lover I have ever had and I might add the nicest man I know. I wanted to see if we were still good together. Either way, I was going to divorce Jake. You never gave me a chance to explain."

"So if I would have agreed, you would have had sex with me tonight?"

She looked down, "Yes, I think I would have. I'm not a slut or a whore but I do have strong feelings about you and I always have. As I said, either way I am leaving Jake."

"What did you talk to my mother about?"

"I didn't have to tell her much. She is very observant. I mentioned to her that Jake wanted us to move to Indiana, but he had already told her. She didn't want him to move but it wasn't her decision. David is her only grandchild and she wanted him in her life."

"What else did you talk about?"

"I told her that I believed Jake was having affairs. She said she thought as much. That's when I told her I was leaving him tonight. I didn't tell her about his wanting to swing but I think she got the idea when I told her he wanted to go visit Sylvia tonight."

"Remember when I helped you set up the computer system and a couple of times I seemed aggravated? It was because I stopped by one of the bars and my brother was there with some slut. I wanted to tell you but I thought it better to mind my own business. Like you, I was hoping he would change.

"I saw him another time after David was born. That time he saw me. I asked him how he could do that to you. He told me what you didn't know wouldn't hurt you. I was pissed and wanted to tell you but I just didn't feel it was my place. Now I wish I would have."

"So, what do you want from me?" I asked.

"Ralph, there's more. I lied and I don't know how to tell you about it. You're going to hate me. Your mom said I need to tell you the truth."

"Just tell me the truth. Whatever you're talking about, just say it."

"David is your son, not Jake's."

"What? Why didn't you tell me? Trudy, why did you marry Jake? I don't get it. Did you like him that much more than me?"

"God no, when I found out I was pregnant I couldn't get you to talk to me. I called you time and time again. I figured you hated me. I didn't know what to do. The only other person I had sex with was Jake, and you knew about that. You know how mixed up and confused I was. Either one of you could have been the father. When I told Jake, he offered to marry me."

"Did you tell him the baby could be mine, that we had unprotected sex?"

"No, he said that the last time he talked to you before that Nude Day party that you said you'd always worn a condom. If I said anything differently it would have complicated the situation even more."

"I thought he had a DNA taken and it showed he was David's father. Did you lie about that too?" I was a little aggravated.

"No, the test was real and it did say it was an eighty-five percent chance that he was his father."

"So why are you saying he's not his father now, that I am?"

"I was never positive that he was his father. Remember at the football game when he bloodied your nose and I came over with some tissues?"

"Yeah, go on."

"I saved the tissues with your blood on them and put them in a baggie. The next day I sent them to a lab to check them against David's DNA."

"Okay, so what's the result?"

"There is a 99.99999% chance that you are David's birth father."

"Damn, who knows this beside you and me?"

"Your mom. She saw me put the bloody tissue in a baggie. One day she asked me the result. I swear that woman can read minds. I told her the truth."

"So what did she say to do about it?"

"Actually, she told me to talk to you and you could figure out what should be done. She said either way David was her grandchild. Then she smiled at me."

"Boy, this is one hell of a predicament. They don't write stories with this much suspense. Is there anything else I need to know? Anything else you want to come clean about?"

Trudy started crying. "I screwed up so bad. I not only messed up my life and David's, but now I have you involved as well as Jake. All I want is the best for my son. I don't know what to do." Now she was crying even harder.

I held her in my arms. I hated seeing her cry. "It will all work out one way or another. Is there anything else I need to know?" I asked again.

"I think I'm in love with you. I'm sorry. You have been so good to me, with the way you helped with David. What are you thinking right now?" asked Trudy.

"I was thinking about your wedding and how I was there wondering why the girl I cared for was marrying my brother who was nothing but a skirt chaser. Then I remembered a couple of lines from a song I once heard.

"The song was 'Crazy Arms' and the verse said: Crazy arms that reach to hold somebody new And my yearning heart keeps saying you're not mine My troubled mind knows soon to another you'll be wed And that's why I'll be lonely all the time."

Trudy leaned forward and kissed me. It felt so good.

"Trudy, I can't do this right now."

"But I thought you cared for me," she said with tears in her eyes.

"I do but I'm not like my brother. We'll get things worked out; I promise. I don't know how yet but we will do it. You have to understand that you threw a lot of stuff at me tonight. I need time to think over all this."

She nodded, but I had more to say.

"I have a son but my brother thinks it's his and is supporting it. I had a girlfriend yesterday and today she's screwing my brother. My mom seems to be in cahoots with you for whatever reason. I've been in love with you for over a year now and have been trying very hard to deny it.

"I want to make love to you but I just can't do it while you are married to my brother. Trudy, I suggest for the next couple of days you stay at mom's house. I don't want you alone with Jake till we figure out what to do.

"Right now I need to get some sleep. I already called off work for tomorrow and now have a whole lot of problems to try and figure out."

Trudy kissed me again and hugged me. I could feel the spark that we shared. I walked her out to her car and thanked her for bringing me my clothes. I watched her drive away. God, what the hell did I get myself into?

*****

Believe it or not, the first stop I made the next day was at my mom's after Trudy left for work. At least she took my advice and was staying there.

"Ralph, thank you for helping Trudy. I really love her and she's been through a lot," said mom.

"Why in the hell did you tell her to come to me?" I asked in a loud voice.

"Be quieter, David is still sleeping. The reason I told her to go to you is you helped start this whole mess, but mainly because she's been in love with you since I first saw her look at you."

"I started it? I didn't tell her to go fuck Jake."

"Watch your mouth Ralph, there's no need to use that kind of language. If you would have talked to her before she agreed to go out with Jake, things might have turned out different. She was a scared young girl that had major decisions to make and you could have helped her, but no, your pride got in the way."

"Mom, I saw her screwing my brother. What was I supposed to do? She was unfaithful to me."

"You two weren't even going together. Trudy told me that you had three dates and you never told her you loved her. How is that cheating? Besides, weren't you at the same nasty party? What were your plans that night?"

"Okay Mom, I get it, but I was a mess when I saw them together."

"Trudy told me it was the biggest mistake of her life going to that party; I believe her. The second one was marrying Jake. She said she should have just raised David on her own. I told her if she had done that then I would never have met my grandson. Jake may be my son and I love him to death, but I doubt he will ever grow up and settle down."

"Mom, what do you expect me to do?"

"Help Trudy get through this mess. Talk with your brother. You know that something is going on between him and that girlfriend of yours."

"I know Mom. I caught them together last night. I told Sylvia it's over and she has a month to get out of my apartment. What do you know about this job offer Jake got?"

"They offered him a job in Indiana pretty much doing what he is here. Trudy has already told him she wasn't moving."

"Now the big question Mom. Trudy said that David is my kid. Did you see the test results? I want to believe Trudy but I need to know for sure."

"Not only have I seen the results but I have them in our safe. I'll go get them," said mom.

It was true. I was looking at the results with my own eyes. I was David's birth father.

"What do I do now Mom? Tell Jake the truth? Since they are getting divorced, should Jake pay child support for David? Where do I stand here? Should I take over the responsibility of helping raise David?"

"Ralph, you have to do what you feel is right. I can't answer for you. The answer is in your heart. That's why I told Trudy to come to you. I have faith that you will do the right thing."

I spent the next two days trying to come up with some answers. I talked to a lawyer friend of mine and he said not to worry about Sylvia. Just make sure I gave her a thirty-day notice, which I did. Otherwise, she might try to get me for an illegal eviction.

I told him about David and we came up with a few different choices. It would now be up to Jake on how we would proceed. I called him and told him we needed to talk. We agreed to meet at a local lounge.

"So little brother, what the fuck do you want?"

"I came to talk to you about Trudy and David. Trudy is filing for a divorce from you. I know that she talked to you yesterday."

"So what the fuck has this got to do with you? I can handle my own affairs. By the way, I'm moving to Indiana next month and going to take your girlfriend Sylvia with me. It looks like I'm always taking your girlfriends. I guess you're not man enough to hold on to them."

"This concerns David. Have you thought about him?"

"Again what the fuck has this got to do with you? Maybe I'll apply for custody and take him with me." He started laughing. "Boy that would sure piss off Trudy if I went after custody."

"Why Jake? Why do you want to ruin her life and probably hurt David as well?"

"I was nice enough to marry the bitch and make sure she didn't have to raise a bastard kid. What thanks do I get? Constant nagging that I'm not more like you and a lot of accusations that I'm always cheating on her."

"Most of it is true Jake. I saw you twice with other women myself. Then you show up at my house getting ready to fuck Sylvia."

"I just want to prove to you that whatever you have I can take away from you. I've done it time and time again."

"Are you jealous of me Jake? The powerful ‘I can do anything' Jake is jealous of his little brother. Man, I feel sorry for you. You're still a fucking little kid wanting his way on the playground and don't care who you hurt to get it.

"I've got some headline news for you big brother. You are not taking David anywhere. I'll fight you through every court in the land to see that you will never get custody of him," I yelled at Jake.

"You're going to fight me? Where the fuck are your brains? He's my son, not yours. If Trudy treats me real nice, just maybe I'll let her see him."

"Okay Jake, here's the way it is. David is not your son, he's mine."

"Bullshit, who the hell told you that? I married that bitch to give the kid a name. I saw the DNA where it said there was an 85% chance that he is my son."

I took out a copy of my DNA and David's and laid them in front of Jake. "That leaves a 15% chance that he was fathered by someone else. That someone else is me."

Jake looked where it said 99.9999% chance of me being the birth father of David. I told him that I had the test done and then showed it to Trudy and mom. I said that they were as shocked as I was. I didn't want him to think that Trudy had the test done.

Things changed as Jake sat there and stared at the DNA results. "Jake, we can solve this problem the easy and quiet way or the hard way where we go to court to decide custody."

"So, what are you suggesting?" asked Jake.

"I can take these test results along with David's birth certificate to a judge and have him change the name of the birth father from you to me. The other way would be to go public and fight you in court. The outcome of course will be the same. Since you like sports analogies, the ball is in your court."

"So I wouldn't have to give that bitch any child support, right?"

"Yes, you're right and the next time you call her a bitch I promise I'll beat the shit out of you. We're the same size now Jake and I'm no longer afraid of you."

He wanted to test me but I was sure he knew I was serious and let it go. He said he would think about it and let me know.

I heard from him a couple of days later and he agreed to go along with the transfer of the birth certificate. I believe Trudy's dad helped him make that decision. After all, he'd been the one to get Jake his new job, and he could see that he lost it just as quick.

He and Sylvia moved to Indiana a week early, taking his savings with him. Before he left, he'd signed the divorce papers and processed them. Trudy agreed to no alimony; she just wanted it over.

She was now living in her apartment with David, and I had my apartment back. Mom was still watching David while Trudy worked.

As far as Trudy and I are concerned, we're like best friends. I give her money each week to help raise my son. I go see him at my mother's almost daily, and most of the time I'm there when Trudy comes to pick him up.

Her divorce will be final in another month. I have already set a date for our first overnight date. We are going to take it a day at a time. We have to learn to trust each other and communicate our true feelings better.

Trudy's family likes me and says we belong together. My mom and dad are happy for both of us. My dad said he is proud of me for coming forward and doing the right thing. Little David is always smiling at me when I enter the room.

One evening Trudy and I were talking to mom when she said, "It's just a matter of time before you two get married, you know. Besides, David needs a little sister."

Thank you for reading my story. Comments are welcome and appreciated. DG Hear