Innocence Lost Chapter 4 the final episode
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skylinerider

Innocence Lost Chapter 4

This is Chapter 4 the final chapter of a story about a young and naïve couple both with strong family and religious values, feeling the tugs of early sexual arousals that cause conflicts and turmoil in both of them. They lived in a strong cloistered religious and ethnic oriented community that held on to the values of old world European communities.

The couple finally surrender totally to their sexual urges and the flood gates are opened to satisfy all their sexual desires which now dominate their lives.

Finally, after many early tries to over come all the guilt at putting aside their religious and family values, they succeed in ‘going all the way'.....well almost all the way. Whatever they did not accomplish because of the pain associated with April loosing her cherry during the night would be accomplished in the days and weeks ahead.

April's long time dream of making love and completing the fulfillment of her desires and long suppressed dreams was very near. Another night in bed and April's long time dream of being with a lover and experiencing the climax of her ‘man' deep inside her ‘honey bun' was now about to be realized.

I have tried to describe the feelings and turmoil of my early and insecure adolescent life. It was a turmoil that I thought was only being experienced by me while everyone else's life while growing up with girls and sex was blissful and secure. Little did I know how wrong I was in my understanding of everybody else's life.

Comments as to what your ‘blissful life' was like is welcomed at skylinerider80@yahoo.com

Inocence Lost Chapter 4 the final episode.

As I had expected, I had a difficult time sleeping and was plagued with frequent tossing and turning through the night after deflowering April. I felt uneasiness with April being at home alone with out me by her side. It should not be this way... we two lovers should be side by side with me comforting April's pain of courage in going against our strong religious beliefs. The more I reflected on April in her bed, but now alone without me to hold and comfort her, the more anxious I became and the more I could not sleep. One anxious feeling fed upon the next until it was just hopeless for me to try and sleep. So I sat out on the back porch of our house swatting at mosquitoes all night.

I raided the refrigerator... watched a little TV .... trying to change the exciting images of April in my bed and what we had done together. But it was all ineffective..her images remained with me in the darkness. I reached out and touched different spots on my pillows where I could ‘see' she had placed her head hours before. I could sense the lingering fragrance from her perfume she wore just for me. Every thing I tried to set aside April's images failed. Sleep continued to escape me for many hours. I hugged my pillow and then her pillow all night thinking of April and how I wanted her next to me in my bed. I was astonished at how vivid the images of my first love were to me on our first night together in my bed. As the night progressed, I felt the lingering impact of being melancholy sneaking upon me.

Then after a few hours, it finally came to me and I smiled to my self in the darkness.....I just got laid! ... I just claimed my first cherry!.... Yes, yes, yes.... I just got fucked. Those were my first impressions and of course selfish thoughts. Then I thought of April's comments about being in a bed with just me and no one else. Then I knew that I didn't just fuck her ....we had made love. Sleep came quickly and I awoke to the sun streaming in through the bed room window.

I was to find out what I had sensed so strongly was that April was also thinking along the same lines as I had been thinking all night too. She had fulfilled a long suppressed dream but she wanted to go further even though she was jubilant with what she had done so far.

What I did not know and neither did April just how much of a suppressed sexual gate we had opened for April. Once the flood gates were breached, she exploded with unrelenting sexual wishes and desires. There were no boundaries or lines in the sand. Oh, it didn't happen over night but as we continued down the path of finding our ways through sexual encounters, we discovered that she was sexually insatiable. What was even more exciting was that over the long time we were together with our boundless sexual energy, April never displayed or gave any indication that she had deviated or gave up her strong religious and family values. She was the "Mistress of Deception" and a true femme fatale..... that was when the darkness of night closed in on us and we were safely alone.

As the years past, April's images did not fade or dull with age as many of my following images in life dulled and became fuzzy. The images and spoken words of my ‘first true lover' stayed with me clear as ever even to this day. The interesting part is that we never really had a good sex session on our first supposed fuck night in my bed ..... those images were to be accumulated in later bed sessions. It took time and a little bit of maturity to really understand just what we had shared in my bed. It was the feeling of a first true love even though we young and inexperienced in life's feelings.

I called April in the early morning to find out how she felt. She was whispering into the phone as I heard her mother call out in the back round and ask who was on the phone so early in the morning. Her mother wanted to know why I was calling so early with April explaining to her that I was going fishing and I wanted to know if she could go. April had now become the mistress of deception..... and she was quick to come up with convincing devious excuses under all conditions...... without any help from me. She was a pleasure to watch her go thought with convincing excuses that were completely false and display a complete confidence in what she was saying .... well maybe lying about!

April told me she had a headache and that she needed to rest and I should call her that night on my return from fishing. I knew what April was trying to tell me...... she was still sensitive from our attempt at making love. Sooo, while going fishing with the guys was not what I had in mind for the day, April's comments seemed to bring up a second fall back activity and I didn't have to make any excuse why I would not like to be with April after such a special occasion for us. Yes it was one of those days that fell into the category of ....."It was the best of times...."

I went down to April's house that evening and we sat outside on the porch. Her mother sat with us for a time and then left us alone. Her mother came out a couple of times supposedly looking for something. I sensed that she was just checking up on us or maybe it was just horny old me.

I always suspected her mother may have been reliving her own experiences in her minds eye and knew that any guy was someone who needed to be watched.... especially with April's ‘new body'. I sensed that her mother was now becoming a little more comfortable with my presence but at the same time she was uncomfortable with me always hovering around her daughter. If she only knew I was past hovering. The ever circling bee had found the nectar of her daughters flower and her daughter wanted to share more of her honey with me! I mentioned my feelings to April and suggested that we sometimes meet in places where her mother would not know we were together. That way, it would not get her mother suspicious just how often we really were together and sexually exploring our feelings.

I tired at her mothers continuous interruptions in our intimate subjects of conversations and I suggested to April that we walk to the corner store to get some ice cream. Darkness would somewhat conceal as from the eyes of the world as we held each other close and walked down the tree covered street like the two lovers we were. A few hugs and quick kisses along with very quiet words reviewing our excitement of our bed room meeting seemed to put all other anxieties of life into the back round.

I brought a chocolate covered ice cream for her mother as we left to go back to the house. It was a weak effort in trying to score some points for thinking about her mother. It was a little bit soft by the time we arrived back at the house but her mother put it in the freezer to get it hard and all seemed to be well.

We sat on the porch after her mother went into the house and actually turned off the light on the porch leaving April and I to sit alone in the dark. My devious act of buying an ice cream for her mother seemed to have reaped a few benefits. April confided to me the next day that my little act of bringing back an ice cream for her mother did in fact score big points with her mother. I needed to remember to think about what other little acts of kindness I needed to do to score points. I needed to score points... it simply was a self serving gesture....I was determined to keep getting under her daughters pleated skirt and into her daughter waiting warn and very wet flower.

April looked nervously around ... I guess looking for her mother's presence. April suggested we walk down to the gate in her fence that opened onto the side walk and the street. She wanted to be sure her mother could not hear her very quiet whisperings of telling me she looked closely at her pussy to see what I had done in taking her cherry. She was surprised to not see any obvious change but she did still hurt a little. Now she came close to me and asked...

"Do you want to do it to me again? I can't sleep or think about any thing except you and me together again."

I told her of not being able to sleep. I had just hugged her pillow all night and walked around with a continuous hard-on thinking of what we had done together.

April was obvious overly excited and wanted to whisper about her loosing her cherry. Now she was a woman in her mind.....and with a scrumptious set of tits I might say.

"I shouldn't hurt the next time you put your thingy in me and we can do it all the way. I want to feel you hold me close and squirt inside of me. We can do it all the way when I'm safe and can't get pregnant."

I told April I would buy some condoms so we would be safe. She confided to me that was good idea but she really wanted to experience me bedding her down and making love to her in her bed with out a condom on the first time. She had dreamed for several months about me filling her honey bun with my honey deep inside her and leaving it there....but she needed to be very safe. We would plan on getting back into a bed and I could cum in her just after she finished her period. She was very adamant about me fucking her deep and cuming in her pussy. April was also unwavering in her position for me to fuck and cum in her pussy the first time in a bed and not in my car. In her mind, fucking her in one of our beds was truly making love and not just sex. It was a point that I wasn't going to take issue with..... that would be dangerous subject to discuss and take any exception too.

The more I thought about fucking her with the visualization of filling her pussy with my cum, the more excited I became. Now it became an obsession to fulfill April's dream but only when April was safe..... we had to be careful. We, however, were not going to wait until a safe day to get together and just play and fuck. We both knew we could not wait for a safe day.

Now April just back to wanting to whisper about what she felt when I was deep inside her pussy even though it hurt then and even now as we quietly talked.

"I could feel you deep inside me. I felt you wiggle your thingy when you were inside. I want you to do that to me again. I can't wait to feel you squirt inside me. I've been thinking about feeling you squirt in me for so long. I've dreamed about it since the girls at school talked about it a long time ago."

It was then that it seemed that sex was more of a topic in the religious girl's school than the other subjects that were being taught. Where did the teaching of religion fall in the order of items to be learned? April thought it was funny when I asked her about her priorities in school and life. It got me a love punch in the arm without an answer to my question. I think the love tap answered my question. I was sure that the nuns had a different priority on subjects to be learned.

I though about where we should get together and we both agreed that I would come to her house the next morning and get together in her bed while her family was at work. My cock was hard just talking about getting together and April confessed that she was also wet and so excited that she wanted me to do it to her right then and there while standing at the gate. She was of course just whispering very quietly... and dreaming out loud.

"Did you hear me? I want you to hold me and do it to me right here."

"I'll be here early in the morning and we will make your bed bounce."

April enjoyed that bed bouncing image... I knew I did. I can remember that I thought about just pounding her pussy and deep fucking her although I would never have said what I was thinking as I spoke to her. I would be a gentle lover and only speak of making love to her in her bed... but we would definitely try for a few bed bouncing strokes. Well I had plans for more than a few bouncing strokes.

Just then as I was showing April the bulge in my jeans and trying to get her to rub my cock in my pants, the porch light was turned on. April suggested that I should leave because it was late and that was her father standing on the porch looking to see where we had disappeared too in the darkness. Our parting consisted of just April squeezing my hand ... not even a peck on the cheek with a kiss. Dad was hovering over what he thought was his budding little flower probably never thinking it had bloomed and was now capable of being fertilized by me with out much effort.... Maybe every day and night. I sure did hope so!

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It rained so hard the next day that I was not able to walk to her house in the morning and get together. As usual, my allocated finances for gas were non existent. I called again in the early morning to try and see if I should come to her house in the afternoon. April was in distress .....I was not to come ....she had started to get her period. She was very unhappy with getting her period on one hand but giggling over the prospect of what it meant to both of us when she was finished. She had a rough time when she got her friend and just wanted to be alone and rest. She said she would not be good company anyway.

"I'll be done in a few days and we can get together in your bed if you want too. Do you want too?"

Did I want too get together? How many times was she going to ask me that same question? Did I remember what we had talked about when she was safe after her period? This conversation had to be a joke and I told her so. She was back to giggling as she spoke saying she was just teasing me... she knew how I felt about taking her back to bed.

The rain continued very heavy for two more days. I had to work over time at my part time job and we did not see each other. We were so horny for each other that we talked several times during the days we were separated. I tried to be a comfort to April as we talked on the phone since April was in minor distress with her period.

The rain finally stopped and April was back to being her horny old self.... and over her period. I continued to smile to myself almost continuously thinking of what it meant to us that she was done with her period. I wanted to get back into my bed with April as quick as possible. Now April wanted to know when my family was coming back from vacation and if I was working that day. She already knew the answers. She was hot and could not contain her desires ... she also was so antsy her mother inquired if there was anything wrong with her.

I remembered thinking to myself. April should have just blurted out to her mother nothing was wrong...... It just was that Bobby had taken my cherry and she wanted to have me fuck her again real good! What would be the look on her religious mother's face? What a crazy thought .... But what a humorous mental image ... for a second ...until her mother and father got a hold of me... Now that was not a funny thought.

I could not sleep that night again...same thoughts.....same images ...same religious issues.....same anxieties ....same tossing and turning all night in anticipation in what the morning would bring. By morning I was exhausted.

I had been paid on my job and I bought gas for the car. I drove to April's house and brought her back to my house where I felt more secure. She was displaying she was very horny and wanting to fool around even before we arrived. Having just finished her period she said we didn't have to worry about her getting pregnant. I acted as if I never thought about the situation. Yup, the thought of her getting pregnant scared the hell out of me. She snuggled up to me as I drove and she was rubbing my crotch during the short drive to my house.

"Do you remember what we talked we try to do when I was safe? Can we try to do it today? I want too."

Still the same joking questions... did I remember?.....My under pants were damp already!

We were so hot for each other we ran giggling with anticipation to get into my bed. There were no preliminaries in getting ready.... No kissing...no hugging ...just the fastest undressing action to get totally naked.

Now we stopped...now we had time to think about what we were going to try doing. Now it all came together and I just had to hold April close to me as we looked at us standing close together in the full length mirror. Her tits were proud and pointing ...her pussy looked slightly swollen and puffy to me... my cock very hard, pointing and seeping precum.

For some reason, April sensed that maybe I was hesitating. Maybe something was not right. I honestly did not notice any change in my demeanor for April to question my intensions.

"What's the matter Bobby... Is something wrong? Don't you want to take me to bed again?"

Here was that lack of confidence in her self that still lingered within April. It was probably left over from when she was a slender stick of a girl and before she had blossomed so quickly into a scrumptious young woman with a hot body. I think now that she blossomed so quickly her self image had not truly caught up with and fully comprehended just how hot a woman she had become. I sure as hell did and so did all the guys who savored erotic thoughts of getting into her pants.

Crazy thoughts were now running through my head... They had been there several times in the past but now I was hesitant to say to April what I had been feeling for so long but scared to say before this minute. April was misunderstanding what she was seeing with my outward display of emotions..... she thought that I was about to renege on going to bed with her.... She thought it was going to be a rejection of her! Her eyes were tear filled and now tears were on her cheeks. I took April's face between my hands and was about to whisper when she interrupted my whispering...

"What is it Bobby ... What is it?"

She was trembling and sobbing with trepidation that something was very wrong. I was scared because I knew what I was now going to say and it seemed so difficult to say what I was feeling. With a deep sigh I looked down at her .....

"I know now that I love you April ... I really do!"

April recoiled at my words as her eyes opened wide .... It was a complete surprise... We had never really exclaimed our love any time we were together.... Only we thought that what we felt could be love. Tears were cascading down her cheeks ..... now a broad smile came over her face and her fingers were buried into my sides. She pulled me in close to her.... No other words were spoken. I now was taken back... I expected some comforting words from April ... but I did not hear any thing but soft sobbing and deep breaths attempting to squelch her sobs for a minute or so.

April took me by the hand and guided me onto my bed and then she laid down beside me. Our noses were just about touching on my pillow. Now she was smiling broadly and running her fingers through my hair... the sobbing had diminished to what seemed to be hiccups.

"I have loved you for some time Bobby. When I asked you to be my lover I was trying to tell you how I felt. I was worried that I would scare you away."

April rubbed her nose on the tip of my nose while still smiling ....now sniffing back all the wetness in her nose.....She sure needed a Kleenex tissue to blow her nose!

"Gawd do I love you so much.... Do you hear me?"

I reached down and pulled the cool bed sheet over us and we snuggled up to each other. Now there was no inclination between us to fuck or fool around... nothing. Things were not moving along as I had dreamed about. This was a time to think about the words that were spoken .....the feelings that were being shared .... and the knowledge that our love was out in the open ...at least between us for the moment.

I found that being awake most of the night was having its effect on me as soon as I rested my head on my pillow. I found myself to very tired and wanting to rest a minute even though I was here to just fuck April. Never in my wildest dream did I think any one could fall asleep under this erotic stimulation. I was wrong!

We must have blissfully snuggled together for quite some time. The snuggling and dozing session was broken by April kissing the tip of my nose without saying a word.... then just deeply sighing and smiling. I was not horny...... I just wanted to feel the smoothness of April's body resting against me ..... her lover. April was still sniffling and I wished she would just blow her nose!

I was surprised to hear the large clock in city hall chime at 10 AM. We must have slept for a couple of hours... at least I did. April was smiling at me...

"Are you finally awake lover?"

Good grief... I had fallen asleep instead of bedding down my hot girl friend.... and with both of us nude in my bed under just a sheet. I needed to get April to promise to never to tell anyone about this. How could I ever live this down if it became common knowledge on the street corner with all the guys?

April did in fact keep her promise to be silent ....well for a few years and until she had a few to many Singapore Slings at a New Years party. It was then that I found out that April had also fallen asleep on our first day in my bed after her period. She had led me to believe that I was the only slacker in our sexual encounter.

What started out as an embarrassing hidden secret between two young lovers blurred with time to a story to be told with a little bit of humor with friends into a story to be continuously told at many parties after a few drinks. It was one of those monumental events that dulled with time down to being funny and not a very significant story of life. Maybe it was because April and I made up for it and made our bed bounce just as April had confessed to me that her parents were capable of doing while she listen as a young girl through the bedroom wall.

Now I was awake and it was getting to be late morning. We were still under the bed sheet and snuggled up close. April began wiggling as she attempted to get into position without using our hands to get me at the entrance to her love tunnel. After a few seconds of failed attempts, I could no longer control my excitement. I stripped off the sheet and knelt on my forelegs as I snuggled up to April's hips and ass. Now my stiff cock was pressing against April's puffy pussy lips. I grasped April's legs and placed one leg over each of my shoulders..

"What are you doing? Come on just lie on me and let me hold you. I want to feel you on top of me."

By then I had pressed against her upward oriented legs that were over my shoulders which rotated her hips and placed her pussy in a more skyward looking position.

"Remember the video we watched last week?"

April smiled and now knew how I was going to make love to her. I encircle my cock with my hand and rubbed the head of my cock several times up and down the slit in her splayed open pussy. Each time I passed over her clit she inhaled quickly with a

"Ahhh...That's enough...I want you now."

Smiling down at her face I guided my cock to the deep entrance in April's pussy as April raised her hips. We both pushed slowly but continuously and I slid in without too much trouble. We were being really cautious... just in case she was going to sense some discomfort. When April took a deep breath I thought that she was hurting. But April quickly responded with excitement saying she never thought that it would feel like this. Now there was time to think and feel just how tight April's cunt was as it engulfed and caressed my thick cock. She pushed hard against me with obviously no pain and I became overly keyed up and pushed back sinking my cock full depth and she knew it. We settled down, fully penetrated and quiet.

"I can feel you way up inside me. You feel so big. "

Her whispered words were words that helped inflate my self-esteem at this crucial time in my life. I loved the feeling and image of having April think I was something she wanted. I flexed my cock muscles and a big grin flashed across her face as she whispered...

" Mmmmmm .....I can feel you moving inside of me. Do it again."

Now April now contracted her cunt muscles and squeezed my cock tighter than it already was in her tight pussy. She contracted several more times seeing me respond with a higher level of excitement at each contraction.

I supported my self over April and compressed her legs until they contacted her tits. April grew very eager for me to begin pumping. I pulled back and then pushed in with April attempting to move against with me for our first really coupled sexual experience. Her blow job was really good and all the little things we had done together were good but this was completely different. I was looking down and under my body trying to watch my cock slide into April. She propped up her head on two pillows as we watched together as my cock disappeared and reappeared first dull and dry and then wet and shining covered with April's wetness. She smiled at her accomplishment.... I knew she loved what we were doing. April never was a squirter but she flowed profusely with the most minor of sexual stimulation, always totally wetting both our crotches at every fuck session. We quickly came to understand that we needed to use a towel beneath us in a bed and I came to carry a couple of towels in the trunk of my car to cover my seats when we fucked in the car...... which was all the time. April may have been capable of being a squirter with a little more help from me. I had no knowledge of a "G" spot and its possible function in a sexual encounter in those younger days. April was a flood of wetness without any direct help for me anyway.

April slowly was to become a fuck machine .... always ready.... every where... any where...always wanting...always needing my cock. She was extraordinary in her needs. There were to be months that we fucked just about every day she did not have her period...sometimes twice...some times more since she became occasionally multi-orgasmic with practice. It developed over time ... but it developed. Once she climaxed seven times in a short time period in her bed..... she took issue with my counting of seven ... she said eight.... I agreed she was more of an authority than I was about what she experienced.

Reflecting back on our experiences as they developed at the time, I was astonished that this once quiet, religious, tender, petite and even skinny girl exploded rather quickly into what I saw was a scrumptious hot and overly sexual woman once the sexual experience gate was opened. The gate was only opened when we were alone or at night. During the day, April displayed she had matured in body somewhat but she presented herself as refined, religious, completely pure and non-sexually active girl to her family and friends. I do not think they ever knew her depth of pure sexuality and what she was capable of giving sexually when we were alone. But these in depth feelings and displays of pure sex were to be developed with more encounters ... but it did not take very many encounters for April to find out what she loved and had suppressed for so long.

April quickly tired of our compressed body contact position...with my cock deeply imbedded in her pussy...... she wanted to be taken in a missionary position with me on top and her arms about me looking wantonly into her eyes. Time and future contacts would let us learn new positions.... Now I just wanted to fulfill April's long night time dream of just making love in a bed and sending my warm cum deep into the recesses of her cunt.

I let April's legs go free from my constraining arms and she spread her legs as wide as possible. Her murmuring sounds of contentment indicated her satisfaction in our new relaxed position. I could feel her moving beneath me, her hips, her legs, her whole body. Now her arms were wrapping around me as she was whispering, asking me for my feelings and telling me how good it felt to her to have me make love with her in my bed again. This was definitely making love and not fucking in her idea of the world. Some how I'm sure it made our illicit sexual coupling more justifiable within her religious teachings.

All her exclamations of wonderful feelings were bringing me to a point that I could tell I was not going to last too much longer. We were not going to be able to discover all the many positions and feelings associated with a more prolonged sexual encounter. Our inexperience with sex and our overpowering desire to just cum together was going to control this real first bed fuck session. It sure was ok with me and I did not have any need to justify my bedding April within religious teachings.... I was very happy just fucking her for the feeling and new experience. Later I would have some guilt feelings ..... when I was alone with my thoughts.

I whispered how excited and hot I was as I tried to hold back since we had just started to make love. April started thrusting after my whispering as to my state of excitement. Within several seconds she softly said once again

"I never thought it would feel like this."

Then there was a few seconds of quiet but slow deep thrusting by both of us in unison before April began pumping in unison with me and repeating my name ..... starting very quietly and then a little louder with each call out.. . "Ohh Bobby...Bobbiee....Bobbieeee"

Her exclamations of my name were followed by a whimper and a deep feeling moan. I lost any control to last longer and I quickly began squirting my cum deep as possible during the next few thrusts. April knew we were cuming together on our first time really fucking in a bed together and she lifted her hips off the bed and pressed her self tightly against me for a few seconds and settled back down on the bed.. April had moaned, purred, squealed and then sighed several times with another "Oh Bobby" as she hugged me in one of her vise like hugs. She didn't have to ask me if it felt good or special...she knew ....we both knew and we just smiled at each other as we kissed easily and tenderly until I softened and she pushed me out.

We rolled on to our sides and just held each other .... no words were spoken. I closed my eyes and slowly ran my hands over her soft back and down and over her ass. I caressed her ass and she snuggled her hips against me showing me she like what I was doing. It wasn't an aggressive fuck encounter like some of what we were to experience with more sessions ...but it was our first ...and we had climaxed almost together that was an accomplishment in itself as we were to find out with listening and learning from other people later in our life.

April dozed off and then I must have for a little while. I awoke to her stroking my hair and head. I was wet...she was wet ....and the bed was very wet!

"I think we should go now."

She was nervous that we were at the house so long. We dressed and went down to the town center where many of our friends just hung around and enjoyed each others company. We could not get into a talking mood with our friends. We needed to be alone and talk over everything that had happened in my bed and all the feelings we had experienced. It was a good day in bed, especially for a first time experience as I was to find out as time went on. What a rush of new feelings that needed to be repeated several times before I could separate every thing my body felt. There were too many new feelings in so many places flashing here and there all through my body.

We began just walking around the park in town and talking when April suddenly mentioned she was wet again. She went into a ladies room in a park and came out smiling since I was concerned.

"Everything is alright Bobby."

She came close to me and squeezed my hand while smiling.

"I was just leaking our love juices because I guess that I am standing up and walking."

April was a little giddy with the idea of she was getting wet and there seemed to be so much even after we cleaned up at the house. She came close to my face to whisper as she jabbed me in the ribs....

"I'm all wet and leaking and it's all your fault."

Her voice inflection startled me for a second. I guess I did not fully understand that she was playing with my emotions since it was the first time I had really fucked a ‘woman' and climaxed in her warm and tight pussy. Then I quickly got her joking meaning ..... I smiled to myself ...... yup it's my entire fault..... yes it is. I fully enjoyed the thought that it was my entire fault. I guess I was proud of that incident. I know April was elated with her part of the bed session.... She had made love in a bed. It was the completion of a long and never ending suppressed desire to be sexual woman and have a ‘man' in her life.

. As we went along, April brought up the idea of us ‘doing it again' but in her bed. I was not for getting into her bed. Since her mother had come home early once before, I was very hesitant to try to make love in April's bed. I said that I would be nervous all the time we would be in her house. April was however insistent, telling me that she wanted to have the memory of us together in her bed. She wanted to be able to hug her pillows and pretend it was me making love to her all night. I explained that her mother could come home early again. She came back with my family would be home very soon and we would have no place to make love again. All we would be doing is fool around in the woods and maybe in my car ...if we could come up with enough gas to drive out of town. I gave up on explaining my fears. We would make plans to go and use April's bed for some early morning love making while her parents were at work!

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April's concerns about my family return soon materialized quicker that I thought they would. My family returned from Maine and any ideas of April and I getting safely together again at my house vanished. April now had me in a position that I could not argue about when she brought up wanting to fool around at her house. All she had to do is call her mother at work early in the morning for a good reason to make sure she was at work and not coming home early. It was going to be a replay of building an excuse to make sure everybody was where they should be during the day.... And not coming home to the house un announced where April and I would be trying our best to make her bed creak and bounce to our love making.

We would once again go to her bed early in the day since her mother would also not come home for any reason until the late afternoon hours....hopefully. I was now also learning from April that she was picking the day for us to make love based upon her safe days between periods. Her mother had given her a book long ago on being a women but I'm sure it was not for us to use in the way we were using it!

I knew I would soon have to buy some condoms because we wanted to just fuck all the time and we would not have to be counting April's safe days. I also did not like to pullout and cum on April's pussy when she was not safe. I was very nervous in buying rubbers so we drove to the next town to buy them. This was a significant dilemma for some time.

The day was set and I arrived early at the back door to her house. As I stepped on the porch, I was startled by the door opening with no one visible. I heard Aprils voice ....she was behind the door. She closed it as I stepped in. She was wearing baby doll PJs that were not a see through outfit but with my ‘X-ray' eyes from seeing her naked beside me before, allowed me to visualize everything in my mind. Her hard, erect and protruding nipples a.k.a. puppy dog noses were trying to poke through the silky smooth fabric of the PJs.

Goose bumps appeared on my arms; sweat on my forehead and near panic in my body. If her mother ever caught April in those PJs with me in the house I could imagine what would happen to the both of us ..... if we were caught in bed I did not have any trouble imagining what would happen to me. This coming here to her house to carry out what we had planned was every thing I envisioned .... pure terror.

She was already being seductive in her movements as she approached and kissed me "Good morning." All her make up had been put on and I had to admit she was very alluring. Her approach did have a calming effect on my nerves. Preparations for my arrival had been completed and it thrilled me that she wanted to please me with more than a quick hop in the sack. Any nervousness that I had prior to arriving was now slowly vanishing. The little pink head that resided between my legs was over riding any serious objections from the more logical and rational big head on my shoulders. I was seduced and I felt good!

She offered me some juice to drink and I needed it .... my mouth was very dry as always. I was told to sit down as my neck and shoulders were massaged. I sipped the juice and ask about her mother's whereabouts. Everything had been taken care of .... I wasn't to worry. She continued to rub my neck and slide her hands down my shirt slowly unbuttoning my shirt. I was asked if I wanted something else. April whispered

"I want to play if you want too!"

She seductively took my hand and said she wanted to show me her bedroom. I was a jumble of nerves again .... I could see her mother everywhere just waiting to jump out and catch us.

"Here is my parents room" as we passed.

I stopped her and said ...

"Let's use their bed"

I was attempting to make a weak joke. Smiling, April turned and gave me a little peck for a kiss saying

"Next time!"

There was another of those statements that sent an rippling zap through my body. I was led by her hand to her bedroom that was the next door down the hall with April smiling back at me as we walked. Everything in the room was in place with the bed neatly made. I stood looking around when she said

"Well if you are going to take me to bed at least pull down the covers and help me into my bed."

I was back at maximum nervousness about this situation again. My cock was also nervous because it was hiding as far as it could between my legs.

April sensed my apprehension and started to undress me whispering encouragements and telling me ...

"Calm down .... Every thing will be alright. Nobody is going to come here."

I crawled into bed and under the bed sheets. Ohhh they were so smooth and cool. I could smell the freshness of the sheets and the perfume fragrance coming from April's body. April was a seductress of the first kind. All the little items that made this get together so special had been taken care of to entice me to be with her.

She knelt on the bed in and upright position and lifted her top and removed it slowly to let me see little bits of her body every second or so. I watched in fascination as the bottom of her breasts began to be uncovered as the PJ was slowly lifted. Finally it was off and she pushed out her chest to expose her enlarged and gorgeous tits. Since they were the first ones that I had been able to see, kiss, and lick they always looked so enormous to me. April twisted her body to make them shake. Her tits were sticking out and moving about without any support necessary to discourage any sagging.. Her nipples were obviously very stiff and hard .... a result of her high level excitement that she so seductively hid within her outward cool demeanor. I liked what I saw and smiled. April showed she was pleased with my acceptance to her display of sexuality. She slid under the covers and once again did her little wiggle under the covers. Out came her hand from under the covers with the panties on her finger being twirled about for my private viewing. This little ritual was to be played and replayed for the years we were together.

She was wearing a new perfume that I mentioned had an interesting fragrance that I liked. I was now back .... excited with all her titillations .... I was hard. April was searching for me under the covers and smiled when she found it nice and hard. She just wanted to hug for a little bit. She wanted to get all the feeling from this moment to recall when she was in bed with only her pillows. I could visualize what she was striving to achieve. I understood her desire to have such a memory for her bed as I had in my bed when we shared a few delectable hours being loveable.

We kissed for a while as I felt her tits and squeezed her nipples which she responded too with much pleasure. I then stripped back the bed sheet and straddled April. I took my cock in my hand and rubbed it against both of her nipples. My precum was seeping from the tip and I able to wet both her nipples very quickly. April's nipples responded to the attention of my cock rubbing, protruding as I had never seen them before. April was now overly keyed up and she did not want to play any longer as she came close to me. She was excited to tell me in a quiet whispering ....

"One of her girl friends had seen a movie that showed a guy and a girl with the girl on her hand and knees and the guy was doing it to her from behind like two little dogs. Do you want to try doing it that way?"

I was eager to try anything and everything .... it was all so exciting. April bounced up and went into a kneeling head down position within seconds. It looked to me that she knew exactly what to do. I think she was one of the viewers of the film!

I began kissing her hips and the cheeks of her butt. She looked back a little annoyed at my lingering. When I went to licking and kissing the lips of her pussy from the rear, she settled down and spread her knees apart to give me better access to a tasty morsel. I found it difficult to get at her clit region from the rear with me kneeling behind her. I turned over on my back and slid my head between her legs. I came to quickly see the advantage of this doggie position and we were learning together what was good and what was better. April could see that she had to lower her hips for me to kiss her honey bun. The fragrance of perfume was close by ..... she had placed some around her pussy. As soon as she was in position, I spread her lips and inserted my tongue. She began to rock as I probed with my tongue and licked her clit and surrounding region. A long moan and a Oooohhh emanated from April. This was a better position. I knew I was doing something right. She confirmed it by telling me to stay right where I was licking. April could not control herself now as she wanted to pump against my face while I was licking.

"I'm ready honey .... I want you honey!"

I was not ready to mount her yet. I had found that licking her pussy was something that excited me so much I could not lay still. I did not want to stop licking .... I wanted to suck and eat everything in the region with a passion before mounting her. I loved the taste of April's leaking pussy juice and I wanted more. Now she was getting quite wet and I told her so. The increased flow more easily escaped from her pussy and that increased my desire to eat her more and suck up all her love juice I could. The fragrance of the perfume seemed to elevate my excitement level for some reason. This whole sequence of love making was so new and exciting to me. She continued to whisper

"I want you now ....please honey."

I wiggled out from under her. She thought that I was now going to mount her. Instead, I licked my index finger and inserted it into her honey bun and began to twist my hand and finger. She moaned when I went inside and began to push my finger in and out. I wasn't touching her clit with this hand position so I kept my index finger in her tunnel and slid my thumb between her lips and over her clit. I was learning quickly and by moving my fingers back and forth I massaged her pussy. She started rocking to my finger massage deeply moaning with much feeling. I kept this up for a half of a minute while I was positioning myself for mounting without saying anything.

April was lost in her thoughts ....the surging of feelings, moaning while calling for me to make love to her. With out a word, I pulled my fingers out of her love box and grabbed my cock, placing it at the opening of her tunnel and with one push I went full depth with no resistance into a very warm, wet and wanting cunt. April recoiled in surprise with a loud "Ooohhh" and then pushed back against me. I pulled out almost all the way and began to push against her with long deep thrusts with her assisting to the strength of our coupling. I was holding on to her hips as I pounded into her pussy. My hips and legs slapped against Aprils butt as I went full depth until my balls tapped the protruding lips of her pussy.

"Listen to us slapping together? I like what you are doing to me. I'll remember this feeling, I'll remember."

I now leaned forward over her back and wrapped my arms around her waist. I caressed her stiff clit between her legs with my finger as I began to trust as fast as I could .... short and fast. April was sighing with all her feelings. She put her hand over mine as I rubbed her nub. She squeezed my hand as I pumped with a strong desire to cum. Her grips tightened on my hand as she whispered she was close .... then it was I'm going to cum .... to I'm cumming .... now!

April seemed to explode in a rush of feelings as she rammed her hips back into me as my strong thrusts drove my cock deeply ...my balls tapping against her pussy. April flowed so strongly that she soaked my balls that just tapped against her pussy as I fucked her. Her body sagged from a kneeling position to more of a squat as she reached her climax while uttering in a deep vocal moan and finally rolling on to her side with me still imbedded deeply in her pussy, fucking her strongly down through her changing position. She called out to me squirt in her... she was ready to feel me cum.

I felt everything that I had stored over the last few days erupt again and again. What a rush knowing I was filling her pussy with everything I could. What a rush thinking I was done .... then another feeling there was more to cum ..... I started to pump and squirted two more smaller loads of cum deep into her cunt. She felt it and purred to my squirting. We stayed on our sides still coupled while I still had a desire to stroke slowly but full depth. I could feel all the excess cum running from her soaking wet pussy and on to my leg even though I still was hard and imbedded full depth. She kept her legs slightly flexed and I stayed with her ..... my cock hard and fully inside.

We pulled the sheets over us and lay coupled for a long time without uttering a word. Everything was perfect. April was beautiful looking and she sure did excite me both as a person and sexually as a very young yet wonderful lover. I had no comparison, but it seemed to me that we did it good in April's bed. It sure was a comfort to me when I was in my bed with just a pillow to snuggle with and think about my April.

"Are you awake?"

I answered softly "Yes"

April was quiet when she commented that

"I think we did it real good today in my bed."

I was still holding her as she repeated several times "We did it real good didn't we?"

I agreed it was good and special too. It sure seemed to be better than what some of the guys on the corner had said about it. But again, we had nothing to compare it too.

"Let's take a shower together" was her cheerful idea.

April and I had never showered with the opposite sex so this was another exhilarating experience for both of us. We quickly became nervous with this escapade and soaped each other promising to shower again at a later date when we were not so nervous. There was however, enough time to soap each other and see all the stimulating areas and get ideas for further exploration in a later showering. I loved soaping her tits and gently squeezing them causing them to slip from between my fingers until I could just grasp her nipples between my fingers and my thumb. April just loved me to do it, always watching for the last second as her nipples disappeared from view. She sure did have gorgeous tits that were definitely made for squeezing and other modes of pleasurable efforts.

When we came out of the shower, the phone rang that was next to me just as I was drying April's back. To say that I instantaneously felt pure and complete terror from the first ring would be an understatement. April at first recoiled to the ring but then laughed at me since I must have displayed my complete terror on my face. Now we both panicked, dressed and got ready to leave the house quickly. I was "Go" when April suddenly said...

"The bed.. the bed.... We need to put the bedding in the clothes washer."

We had almost forgotten to cover our tracks from our very wet love making session. I thought it was a little bit funny. April did not see the humor in my thought. To complete my jostling around I commented to April as we left to drive from the house ...

"Can you see your mother's expression in she came home and we had used her bed like we joked about and then forgot to do the wash?"

I had to turn and look up the street to see if any vehicles were coming and I glanced at April's face at the same time. Her look said it all... My comment of "Opps." wasn't satisfactory to calm the resultant nasty words that came from April. I still thought it was funny but it was best kept to my self.

We celebrated our love making secession by driving down to the local sandwich shop on the river road for a veal cutlet, fries and a mocha ice cream frappe'. I was a man of means now with my part time job. I remember thinking I couldn't have found a better girl for a bed partner. I started to get hard again and I told April. She smiled and said good as she took hold of my hand and we walked swinging our arms together. Life couldn't get any better than this.

We had a lovable summer and fall. There were many good times being together swimming and picnicking alone and with both families. What started out as a somewhat sexual liaison for both of us blossomed into a more than a sexual relationship. A strong bond of love developed that was probably due to our ‘first time love affair'. When her family moved to be closer to their work location our relationship suffered due to distance between us. Both our hearts were broken. She cried so hard when we knew we were to be separated for longer time periods. At that time it felt like all was lost.

While the frequency of our sexual contacts diminished, the intensity increased when we would get together. The level of our feelings for each other increased also and we tried to make plans for the both of us to share a life together. April went off to college in Europe for one year and then she returned to a university in the West. I stayed and finished college on the east coast.

We were very intimate when we would get together for the holidays and school breaks. We discussed our long term marriage plans with a passion during our school years. We kept in touch by telephone and every thing seemed to be beautiful. But like most long distance romances, things were changing and we did not know why. Time and maturity led to so many other distractions in our lives. Then before we knew why, our plans for the future were different and we drifted slowly apart.

April found her calling for life and accepted a position in Rome with an international organization that helped feed and care for the less fortunate peoples of the world. Her passion for her work exceeded her passion for us being together. We had dinner in Boston many years later. She had never married and never had another lover. I was astonished at what she was confessing and there was no doubt she was tell the truth about her life. When I asked her why, she just looked down at her dinner plate and said she had already found the man she would love always... years before. No one else would ever do. When she looked up her eyes were wet with tears and she was smiling. It took me a few seconds for me to grasp what she had said to me as she then looked back down at her plate of food and gently pushed her morsels of food this way and that with her fork. We must have held hands across the table for many minutes never saying a word. We did not need too.

I last saw her at the airport leaving to fly back to Italy. When I kissed her just at boarding, I whispered to her.... I had to try just one more time.

"You know that I love you still! We should be together."

April was very melancholy now as she held on to me tightly.....

"I know you do and I'll always love too. But I have this calling that is so strong to help these people. It's so important to me and to them. I can not tell you the feeling that arises in me when I see what we can do in these countries. I know you will never understand because I don't understand myself why this had to be....but it did."

For years afterwards, I would sometimes sit alone at night lost in my thoughts when April's face and blossoming body would creep into my mind. Damn .... Why did I let her get away???? What could I have done to stop her from leaving me and chase that so important career????? After listening to her and seeing the joyful look on her face as she spoke.......Nothing I could have said would have changed the outcome...It had to be!